Phew. Evac Day Camp ended yesterday. It was a very long and tiring day for everyone, I believe. Especially Xiaoli and Yuping ma'am ba. -pat- congrats all of those who passed :) Those who didn't,well, start studying for the next accred! Haha.

When I think of having to plan for another evac and fd bronze accred, I really sian diao. Tomorrow is the last day of 2009 le. My last day being a sec3 student. Next year being a graduating student, I really don't want and can't afford to spend too much time on hsrcy.. My dad has been nagging and nagging about me putting so much effort in this cca since the start of this year. lol. Yet somehow, I got involved in planning these 2 accreds and the sec1 orientation >.< -sigh- Oh well. Looking back now, I've really come a long way since I entered when I was sec1. I feel like I can do with another month of school holidays. So sad. So stressed too. Next year Olevel le lair!! omg...I still totally don't understand what my Chem and Phy textbooks are talking about. TT.TT Piano lessons have been so frequent this month ever since my dad "fired" Annie. lol. Today I finally understood Ms Chieng's way of teaching piano :D So happy. I was still thinking: wah,so many songs haven't pass siah (cause Annie's method was to tick when she thinks that I have mastered the piece). But today I realised Ms Chieng uses dates instead. lol. T.T I really don't want to start my stressful sec4 life...but then again...if I get over sec4,I will be as happy as a lark already...so...get it over and done with? LOL. But still, I must get it over with flying colours ^^ I CAN DO IT! yea right...

Hee. I just came back from Batam yesterday night. Had a wonderful time with my family over there. Will upload some of the pics we took another time. Heheh.

5 things I learnt from this trip:

1. Never take things for granted. I finally appreciate Singapore's cleanliness.
2. Women don't have an aim when they go shopping. They just buy whatever they like.
3. Massages in Batam are GOOD.
4. It's so hard to get a smile from some of the people there :(
5. People there just walk to where they want, without caring if they might knock into others.

I finally appreciate the art of photographing. I used to feel that taking photographs is a waste of time. Standing by the side while others have their fun taking photographs. In the past, I would think: what's the use of taking all these stuff? But now, I have a different perception. Photographs are a way of keeping memories. The next time you come to the same place, things might have changed. Sharing the pictures with the ones you treasure is an enjoyment itself. This time, I took plenty of pics with my bro :)

Though it was a short 2d1n trip, I think that it was rather fulfilling for me. I saw how their way of living from ours. The stuff that we take for granted, are things that they really need to improve their lifestyles.

But then again, it is in those kind of places that you can find a girl's dream guy, isn't it? Haha. You know, tough, tanned, strong, gives a strong sense of security, protective,loving,etc. Haha. Where to find a guy like that in Singapore? :P

15years old le. First time go for a massage. lol. So paiseh. Don't know what to do. Somemore they are older than me,so it's like errr.... Haha. They really have a lot of strength,man. When they massage, I can feel the pain T.T The ginger tea given after the massage is really..err,not to my taste. lol.

Didn't shop much. But bought a few things for myself: a pair of snickers, oil suckers, a diary :D:D:D Finally have a proper diary ^^ Keeping memories. Haha. Glad to be back in Singapore~!

Christmas Eve~ lol. Normally I would just brush past the word "christmas",but this year,it is kind of different though I have no idea why. But one thing to be sure of is that christmas this year ain't gonna be merry for me.

For one, I finally ended the 3year teacher-student relationship with Annie at 3pm today. lol. Today's lesson was utterly horrible. Jeez. Well yea,I didn't really prepare for it,since I knew that it was going to be the last lesson at all,etc. But awww man~ lol. We never said hi,never said bye. In fact, I somehow get the feeling that we wouldn't even speak to one another if not for the fact that we are connected by piano. In a way,I am glad that the journey with her is finally ending. Mann,it has already been 3 years~

Well for second, I am having piano lesson tmrw night with Ms Chiend,my new piano teacher. T.T Now that's just plain sad or what. But she christmas still need to work, a bit sad for her. lol. I never have plans on Christmas. I swear. Just slouch around like a couch potato with family. Ha. Ha.

I am going overseas this weekend~ Finally have a chance to go overseas with family. At long last. TWO LONG YEARS. I haven't gone overseas with family. Before those 2 years,sometimes my one or two of my bro wouldn't be able to join us because of studies or work. So yea. Pretty happy.

The rain is making me lethargic. Haha. Merry Christmas!

Haha. Heard that Julienne was awarded the lanyard in RCYC'09. Haha. Congrats! ^^ Hope the rest had had fun too! :)

Well, after these few days, I have finally figured things out.

Well,I went to KKH for my checkup yesterday. Saw a small hunk there. Woohoo~ So cool. Had a couple of eye contacts, but didn't talk T.T Oh well. The doc said I should be fine. Yay... The doctors and nurses there are really very nice. Even though they are busy, they would still ensure that you're comfortable and enquire after your well being. But well,I still don't like hospitals. They give me a creepy feeling. Especially those machines...

I mentioned before that I was really happy about something in one of my previous posts,right? Well, I guess I can reveal it now, since it has already been confirmed. I shall be having a new piano teacher~ I have had 2 lessons with her so far, and I feel that she's really much better than my first piano teacher,Annie. I am currently handling both of them now, ending next week with Annie. Ahhh~ I do hope so that this shall be a new beginning.

I have been reading manga these few weeks and playing maple every now and then.

Got pretty upset just now with my parents. They just got me really agitated with their nagging me to practice piano. Grrrr... They just don't understand this part of me,huh. -shrugs- Forget it. This is saddening and troubling.

Had a really busy week. Left only 2 more weeks till school reopens. Urgh. I haven't finished my holiday homework T.T!!

I am going crazy. All of a sudden,so many thing to do... -sigh- Just endure tomorrow,Yu Lin,and all will turn out fine. Happy or sad ending,I don't know. But at least I know that it will be an end for everything. Temporarily anyway. Just to buy me some time for a couple of days. Then the horror starts all over again.

I don't know if it's a sweet dream or a nightmare. Is history repeating itself? Or is it a new beginning? Oh,I do so hope so it's a new beginning. I hope for it so much. I cannot endure going through everything again. This weight on my shoulders...can it finally be taken away? Have I finally ceased being Atlas (an enormous exaggeration)?

Tomorrow shall be the day of reckoning...

Jeez. Piano lesson today was scary. I was trembling as I played. Gosh. Fearing yet knowing that she won't pass me. How sad. -sigh- 2more lessons to go!! Jiayou!!

Oh yeah. Pics taken during the Chem AEM is on Elysia's blog :D I lazy to go steal and post here. Hee. Anyway the pics are ugle. Me anyway. T.T

Sian. Parents are pressuring me to start practicing my piano. -sigh- piano ah,piano. Why must you do this to me? T.T

I haven't been here for some time again,huh. Hee. Had Chem AEM at SP for the past week. Pretty fun and engaging. Recommend all to try if given the chance :D We learnt some stuff about drugs,DNA,analytical techniques,poisons,etc. Hee. Enjoyed the lessons and practicals a lot. Even though I have to wake up very early each morning T.T So ended up pretty tired at the end of each day. lol.

So happy that the presentations went happily :D I would say it was the best presentation I ever did.

Eeeekk,so tired. Want to sleep already. Today was the last day of the AEM. Haha. Thought I wouldn't receive any Edusave this year. Surprisingly,I did. Some very very small stuff.

Happy Belated Birthday,Caocao!

Bon voyage,Zhi Yuan~

oh my god. I am so tired T.T my feet hurts like hell too. Damn the new shoes. Today was the start of Chem AEM at SP. Well,the lecturer was fun and so the lesson was quite good,even though the duration of the lesson is long. Everywhere you go,it's like air-conditioned. So cool la!! lol. The classrooms,the laboratories and of course,the 5-storey library. Was it 5 storey? or was it 4? Oh whatever. It's huge. lol.

The practical lesson was cool! even though the results my group got wasn't exactly perfect,but well,it was not bad already :D After that,me and Nut took the mrt to TPY and went to search for caocao's bdae present:) Had a hard time looking for her present. And that was the reason why my feet hurt too. Haha. But well,it's for my gugu after all ^^

Me and Nut saw a bag that we both loved. But was too expensive for us to afford T.T -sobs- Then the 2 tired us went back home. I am so tired that I wanna just go sleep rigth now. Zzzzzz~

OH MY GOSH,OH MY GOSH!!! I am so psyched!! I am not gonna say anything yet,since things are still pretty much unconfirmed,but yes! One more troubling matter on it's way to heaven. HEE.

To the certain someone whose name starts with an E:
I feel safe typing this message for you here because I know you will never read it. You don't even know this place's url,for god's sake. You were never interested in learning more about others,were you? I never realised that I had added you in friendster. When I learnt about it recently,I got a shock looking through your photos. Sheesh. Get a life? Oops. That was mean.

But anyway,that wasn't the point. The point is that I am sorry I broke my promise. I didn't have the courage to see you. I even forgot your dog's name -.- I think I made the right decision. In your case,anyway. Well,I have said all I wanted. Though I know the chances of you reading this message is very very slim,but there's a small part of me that wants you to read this. May you have a happy future,my dear. All the best:)

I am going crazy soon >..< I am having AEM starting from this friday,and I won't have time to have piano lesson during those days. Much to my regret,she said very very unhappily,"then never mind lor. we just put it on this sat. I rush back home only mah." Then I was like...arghhhhh!! I really can't make it!! Jeez. I just want things to be normal,peaceful. When did the relationship with her become so tense?? AGRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

:(

What in the world am I going to do now??

Nothing is ever gonna change. Get real,girl.

Oh dear. Though I was already expecting it,but argh. It's still a little hard to get over. Like bu gan xin. Haha. It was my own fault though. Who else can I blame? No one but myself. Lol. Beating myself up too much. Stop.

The piano lesson yesterday was utterly horrible. I have always known that taking the afternoon session might not be a wise choice since the teacher would be tired from teaching since morning,etc. But because of my schedule, I really have no choice. But did she have to be like that yesterday? T.T I know the two of us started out on the wrong foot from the very beginning of our "friendship". I didn't greet her,said bye to her,look at her in the eye...Whenever I felt a need to,I would simply sort of bow/nod. Too used to it,I guess. -sigh- I really feel like changing a teacher...

Hmm,I wonder if the others received the letter from MOE or not. Oh well. That's not really important. I guess I should work harder. -sigh-... -double sigh-

Hee. I just finished watching You're Beautiful. It was utterly,totally amazing. Especially the happy ending. But then again,it's a drama. lol. Happens only in fairytales. Which celebrity you know,would profess his/her love in front of his fans, during his/her concert? lmao.

I finished reading Ten out of Ten today. -screams- It's a totally wonderful book. I totally love Michael. He's just so damn cool. But then again, it's FICTION. Happens only in fairytales. lol. But it IS a great story.

So much love,so many happy endings. Hmmm.

I gotta continue on holiday homework someday -.- I am seriously decomposing at home. Anyone wanna go library to do homework with me? -hopeful,shining eyes-

Wow. My mom really did go to Orchard Road today. Dragged me along too...Didn't buy much. Just some family favourite biscuits,some food to eat and ... TADA!! The last book of the Princess Diaries: Ten out of Ten. WEEEEE~~~ I had a hard time finding that damn book. Tried Popular,but they didn't sell. Tried NLB,it was almost always on loan. Trying to buy it,but not wanting to order from overseas. Hahaha. I finally found it in Times today. Heheh! I wanted to buy it myself,but didn't bring enough money T.T had to ask my mom to buy for me. Buying books isn't really supported in my family,since they use libraries as an excuse. lol.

Then me,parents,second bro went out to eat at some hawker centre. Since it's going to be a long wait if we went home and cooked. lol. Saw some interesting people.
1) A guy wolfing down his food like a hungry ghost. Seriously. I doubt he even swallowed. Just kept gobbling down. Wow. Amazing. It went on till I left the hawker centre.
2) A little boy,son of a hawker,said "lao le jiu bu hui bian pang" He said it so matter-of-factly too. Haha. So cute.
3) A sec2 guy bringing a kindergarden guy to the hawker centre to eat. So cute. I mean both of them. lol. The older guy was like so caring to that little boy. Ahhhh~~

And I heard my aunt is getting married tomorrow!! Woohoo~!! I thought she was married already. LOL. Question mark all over my forehead. lol. I don't know who she marrying la. lol. Not going to the ceremony anyway. Only parents are going. I finally can get some rest tomorrow. Phew. Chionging shopping malls with my mom is no easy feat,I can tell you. Haha.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY,PEI FOONG~!

May you have a wonderful day ^^

OH MY GOD! The .... thing just happened to me. I am left kinda badly shaken up. My legs are still trembling. Gosh. It was just a small thing. Something I should just brush past. Don't think about it. DO NOT think about it. It's so small. Yup. It was nothing.

Well,yesterday I went Expo,today went Chinatown. My mom say tomorrow go Orchard. -moans- Seriously. I think the shopping expenditure the 2 of us spent just yesterday and today amounts to a total of about $300. LOL. I think 1/4 of it was used to buy me a new wadrobe. The rest was food,mom's clothes,etc. So happy. Today actually bought stuff that are suitable for me to wear. YAY! -on my way to being a true teenager- Well,I still lack the most important elemtnt. Freedom. Guess that might not even happen on my 21st birthday. lol.

Today I tried on a strapless gown for the first time in my life. My god. It was utterly beautiful!! Ahhhhhhh~~ -soul flies out of my body- Gosh. I swear,I am gonna buy all kinds of strapless gowns when I have the ability to do so. Of course my mom didn't buy it for me. I wouldn't even dream of asking her to buy it. She would look at me as though I were crazy. LOL. You know the reason why. Don't ask. Haha.

On my way to getting all the books for my sec4 year. lol. First time I receive a hand-me-down textbook. Haha. It was given by my bro's tuition kid. He'a graduating afterall. Wonder if there will be drawings inside. Hmmmm... Haha. Yup. That's all I have to say~

Eeekkkkk!! So damn tired. Know what I did the entire day? I spent it by going shopping with my mom. My god. Why am I so shag while she's so nonchalent. ARGHHHH!! I must be getting old T.T Seriously. I was totally worn out after shopping for like 3 or 4 hours. Maybe it was because it's hard to find anything suitable to my Mom's tastes. Even worse. her tastes and her tastes are different (so cliché). I saw so many things that I love yet her comments were always "aiyo. so short!!" or "aiya. too unsuitable for a girl your age le la" ... What to do? She's the one paying. Not me. Now you know why I prefer going shopping on my own. Even though it totally burns a hole in my savings. Haha.

It's so hard to get out of my house nowadays...Grrr. Main reason: My dad,of course. As I expected,he's wanting me to start studying for Olvls now. Have I said that before? lol. I didn't want to tell him the reason why I wanted to go out,and so I had to weave some cowebs.. ahem. Most unfortunately,he was on leave that day, and was most willing to drive me around =.= I tried THREE tactics to get him off my tail. Guess what? None worked. URGH! In the end,I had to resort to my last last method...A strategy I really hadn't wanted to use. But one that he forced me to use. -evil aura- HAHA. Joking...lol.

Coldplay - Viva La Vida

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemies eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
Once you know there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
(Ohhh)

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People could not believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries Wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world
(Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhh)

Hear Jerusalem bells are ringings
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Oooooh Oooooh Oooooh

I absolutely love this song. I think it kind of started with one of Collin's lessons. lol. The one about France's Kings. On Napoleon, King Louis XVI and King Louis XV. He printed these huge stacks of info on them from wiki. Waste of paper,I have to agree,but the information there are seriously very interesting. Well,maybe only for one like me who likes to read this kind of history stuff. lol. But anyway this song really suits these few people. A song about a king who used to enjoy a luxurious life. The impression the song gave me was that the people were ungrateful. When the king gained more territories,they supported him. But the minute when the country faces destruction/ruin,they turn their backs upon him. In the end,the king ends up a commoner/exiled. In short,it is a song about a fallen king.

It's kind of hard to imagine that these things actually happened,especially in our modern century. But once the evidence is in front of you,it is impossible to deny anymore. It is not pity/sympathy that I feel for these fallen kings,but a mixture of empathy and awe. I admire their courage and I feel sad at their downfall. Perhaps some of the kings deserved this kind of fate,but definitely not all of them.

Well,just enjoy this song :)

I just finished watching You're Beautiful Ep14. That show is seriously so damn nice!! I seriously admire Go Mi Nam's courage in rejecting the other 2 guys. Especially when the 2 of them are people she's gonna meet EVERYDAY. Jeez. Awkward-ish. This show can make you smile happily one sec,and crying in another. It's nice!! Sad though.Only 2 more episodes before this whole series ends T.T Oh well.

I finished watching Shining Inheritance quite a while back. Hmmm...it's also quite a nice show (of course. if it was otherwise,I wouldn't be watching. LOL) The happy ending also contributed to the popularity of the show.

HS Starry Starry Night.....Popcorn was...nice? lol. Weird colour,but tasted good...But somehow some of the people who ate them had tummyache today. LOL. I didn't though. O.O Hotdog....I much prefer the one selling in Ikea. A dollar cheaper too. lol. At 7pm,I left for BC. The last lesson for the year :D Meaning last lesson with Collion. WEEEEEE!! Ahem. BC meeting on 3rd Nov ^^ Having lessons in the morning,but will go over later.

Still have some Holiday Homework haven't do yet >.< The other day,I just did Section A of my Emath worksheet. Still have Section B to do,Amath worksheet and Physics homework...Sian. Oh. And 3 more book reviews. Sheesh.

Can't play maple,with my com being changed and all that. So sian. Basically rotting at home. Can't take it much longer. Save me~~~!!

Feeling pressurized all of a sudden. I know my academic results this year has been far from excellent,but I really feel as though I have tried my best. Why is it that the stress just keeps building up? Apparently,Economics is a PURE HUMANITIES subject. My god. I chose my subject combination without even knowing what I am getting myself into. Haha. I must be the world's dumbest person -.-

Recently,my dad has been telling me to start studying for Chinese and Economics...He might as well tell me to also SUN BIAN study physics,chemistry,emath,amath. How about EVERYTHING??... Jeez. I am already feeling terrible...why must he add on to my guilt? Does he think that I am not worried about my own O levels?

Tears falling down one's cheeks...trickling down,down...down. Tear glands can't seem to stop producing those salty tears. The bedroom is illuminated only by the moonlight that streamed past the curtains...Sitting on the bed in semi-darkness,one can't but help think about the past. Reflecting one's mistakes...The mind keeps playing those scenes that caused life to change. What exactly went wrong?? One watches as people grow older and mature. It's as though those lifestories are re-enacted again in the bedroom. Watching those parts of life flash by,one's spirit would break eventually...It's not exactly self-pity,but more of...sadness,grief.

Right. That was a crap compo. Seriously. I have been trying again and again to write a compo whereby you could actually envision the scenario in your mind. Sadly,I failed. I thought that if I poured out my emotions into the story,it might work. But nah. It didn't.

Whatever. Very fed-up these few days. I haven't exactly been in my best mood. Having a sore throat...Today's Dad's bdae. Right.

omg...I have calluses on my palms. T.T Haven't seen them for a long time. Since I last played monkey bar. lol. Now,that's really long. At least 4 years. Did I mention that my childhood was really lonely? lol. More often than not,I was at the playground with my dad...

It was night-time. Chinese New Year Eve. My dad,my 2 bros and I went to the deserted playground to play with fire sparkles. It was one of my happiest night. Surrounded by family love, I just wanted time to stop there. Watching each fire sparkle being lighted was like having colours in my life again. Even if it was just for a short while. Haha. I remember Da Ge throwing a lighted fire sparkle into a tree. Hahaha. I was standing there,worried that the tree would catch fire. LOL. We also played with some of the very loud rockets? I can't exactly recall what was being played. But even till now,I know that I was really happy then. Since young,I believed that I can survive without friends. After all, family is who you meeet everyday,right? Friends...is merely a nicer word for enemies. That's my definition of friends in the past. Perhaps my heart still believe it. I don't know. Pasting a smile on everyday,before going to school...just to blend in. I was never athletic,never spontaneous,never volunteered inn anything. More of those kind that just sat in a corner,in my own world. I wouldn't say it wasn't nice. But it was kind of lonely sometimes. I appreciate the silence a lot. Just listening to the surroundings is enough for me. That's why sometimes I feel bad about not talking even when it's just 2 people walking side by side. Obviously conversations are expected,but because I like silence...I just keep quiet. LOL.

How was that? Better? LOL. Kay. going out. dad's bdae lunch. lol. Bye~

A lying mask
A blackened heart
It's an herculus task
For thee to live but.

Everything is falling apart. My fantasies all wrought out and thrown into the fireplace. Watching those fairytales burning up in flames,it's heart wrenching. But what can I do,save watch? I can do naught but face the cruel,harsh reality.

Marvellous. I spent the entire day rotting at home. Thought about a lot of things,fantasized a lot of impossible things. I keep traveling back to that cross-junction of my life and thought of every other possible stories that might have continued from there. To my amazement,I finally realised something. It's over. No use thinking about it any longer. Why not just let go of the past? Isn't it easier for everyone,for myself?

Indeed. I think that I have finally gotten back to reality. This is good. Very good.

And also about my piano,I have come to terms about what I should do. For the past year,I have gotten Annie pretty pissed. Oops. Haha. I didn't practice my songs,I didn't go and memorise all those italian music words. In short,I just lost my interest in piano. So today,I tried to practice my piano...My fingertips hurt like hell. And my left hand has always been rather weak,so my right hand always has to slow down and wait for my left hand to catch up. Now you know why they say playing the piano trains your patience. Haha. And the most frustrating things,is that I just can't get my right hand to play the tune correctly!! GRRRRRRRR.

Tomorrow piano lesson at 8am. lol. Wonder if I will be able to survive it.

HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!!!!Going to do them now. Pinky swear.

Urgh. Had meeting with ely,cao and jy this afternoon. Well,it was rather productive,I must say. lol. But boy,life is not a bowl of cherries. -sigh-

Today's meeting took a lot off my mind. Starry starry night (I allocated ppl to do respective stuff),training dates, Evac camp stuff and FDC all sorted out. Phew. It's a relief. Regarding piano issue #1,I took care of it already. Piano issue no #2,still under reseach. haha. But most probably,I will stop my theory at grade 5. No use continuing on. Hmm...

Holiday homework,still haven't touch. LOL. I gotta do as I preach someday. Procrastination does me no good. haha.

I finished watching Shining Inheritance today. Jeez. Korean shows are always so emotional. Almost made me tear. But it was a nice ending,even though I felt sad that the 2 other people chasing after the main leading couple didn't have a happy ending. Oh well. Guess that's the way of life,huh...

HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!!!!

Oh nooooo. It's one of those moments when I am once again,suddenly overwhelmed by the things I need to do. Urgh. First and Utmost, this friday's Starry Starry Night. I haven't even got the names. Grrrrr. And it's this Friday too =.= today is already Monday. Even if I tell YOs tomorrow,I still think it is LATE. lol. I gotta get back my previous alertness.

Next is getting permission for holiday trainings. T.T If wenxin gives me the sec1s names for this friday's event,I am gonna call up YOs and tell them the namelist and also ask for permission. All these things keep hanging over my head like a dark cloud. It is uncomfortable.

Then FDC. There's a meeting tomorrow...Will we actually get anything done? lol. Hope we do. We really don't have much time left.

That's all for Red Cross. Next up is piano. I was actually asked by Annie to ask Sinyee if she wanted to go for this sunday's concert. lol. Both said I if I go,my friend would go with me too. LOL. But I didn't even have any intention to go....I mean,I am not one for concerts,I have to say. Mainly because my family isn't one that appreciates classical.

Then my dad also wanted me to ask around my friends about piano theory. It has been quite some time since I studied piano theory. I haven't touched those books ever since I passed my grade 5 theory. So now my dad wants me to continue theory,but Annie said I had to plan another session with her daughter,who is the one teaching grade 6 theory and above. Yea...So I currently still have to think about what to do.

Then of course,not to miss out,my HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. Sian diao. lol. I have actually quite a bit to do. Normally,I am not one to drag my homework,but because at the start of next year,we have to do a set of Diagnostic tests,so I was thinking perhaps I could wait until end of holidays before doing them? T.T Oh crap. I know it is just an excuse I give myself because I am not movitavted to do them now. Urgh. Where has the Yulin I once knew gone to?

And also...friends outing. -sigh- Wondering if I could go Ann's house this thursday. At the back of my mind,I keep thinking that there's something else to do this week. lol. But I just can't remember what is it. Hmph. 3rd November,going out with BC friends. That one is SURE GO. Haha. Besides these...no more outings are planned. I meant those including me. lol.

Hmm,what else is there? Oh ya. I am currently watching a lot of drama videos. LOL. Shining Inheritance, Momo Love, you're Beautiful. It's all because of these 3 dramas that I have been procrastinating so much. HMPH.

I hope this will be the last para. Olvls next year. Something that has been hanging at the back of my mind...just can't push it out of my head. Even my juniors have started studying for next year and here I am,lounging around like a useless couch potato. I do have a conscience,you know. -sigh- But seriously,I am not motivated at all to do anything now...

Alright,this is gonna be the LAST LAST para. Managed to finish YOG project today...Some stuff happened. Totally disgusted,I have to say. And it's not because of the terrible video we produced...

LAST LAST LAST para :D Has my english improved? Haha. Dewson mentioned that I improve his English when he chats with me. Thank you~ To my chagrin,there are always people who are better than me. Just like my beloved Jason -pouts- Damn him. English is so DAMN PRO!! Urgh. Sometimes I even have to read his messages TWICE to make sure I understood him. lol. Guess I better brush up my English!! Haha. Heard Chung Yang is at Beijing right now,undergoing training with the badminton team there. Haha. Ganbatte! Don't die. LOL. Jk. haha.

Wow. Last Friday,I was really busy. LOL. Had Chem lesson,something else,BBQ and lastly,BC. Haha. The weather was terrible. But I guess/hoped everyone had had fun :) something sweet happened to me. And so,I thank you,Sir. Even though I know you won't read it. Haha. Hope you didn't think I brushed away your comment casually. It meant something to me even if I didn't show it. Haha.

2nd time I wore FBT shorts to BC but I still made an impression? LOL. Colin kept looking at me -.- Perv. Haha. Jk. Oh. I forgot to add a Mr. HAHA. -ahem- okay. hahaha.

Oh,and not to forget,it was friday the 13th. 13/11. Ying Lun's bdae. Haha. His message was really very sweet. Thank you for letting me know that I am being appreciated. It means a lot to me. You really experience joy when you give a present to someone you care for. Truly.

Haha. Incidentally,it was also Ann's friend's birthday. Haha. Heard he was a rich guy.Whoever you are,hope that you had a happy day too. ^^

sometimes,life is not what it seems to be. complicated relationships,complex people. nothing will go as you wish.

Oh. And I just talked to Dewson. Haha. May you and your beloved girlfriend have a happy ending. Correction: you MUST! Haha. Because I only like happy endings. Sad endings make me cry,and I don't like that. Haha. All the best in the relationship between the 2 of you~!

Oh dear. Dad and Mom are back from their Genting trip T.T No more freedom. -sigh- I had fun in the last 3 days =) Though I had to wake up early everyday T.T Oh well. At least the house is back to normal. lol. An example would be the water. They left the house for 3 days,and the water has been there for 3 days,'cause very few people drink it. LOL.

Tomorrow is HRCY's BBQ :D Though I have to leave early T.T because of British Council. But it's okay ^^

And today,I made a very very careless mistake!!! Urgh. I don't even want to talk about it.

I posted Yinglun's bdae card today ^^ Hope you can receive it in time,my dear :) And don't stress yourself too much,kay?

-sigh- Everywhere I go,I see the shadow of our past. Till now,the past haunts me like my shadow. I keep wondering,thinking if I had done the RIGHT thing,even when I know it is too late to do anything to reverse my actions. But I can't help but think...what would have happened if we had continued.

Oh shucks. Maybe I am just too bored, just wanting to do something,instead of rotting away.

Feel so damn alone. For once,I feel like going back to the lonely primary school life,where I was accompanied by books. In them,the ending is out there for me to read. Some books even allowed me to choose my own ending...

I doubt you even think of me. I am right,aren't I? I know I shouldn't either....

CUT!!! Yulin is very busy. Yulin has to do a lot of things this holidays,so she doesn't have any extra time to even THINK of anything else except the matters at hand. Yulin must be focused!! Chemistry time!!!!

Just read through Yinglun's blog and I felt even more depressed. He seems to be going through a rough spot in life T.T my heart is breaking all over again.

Near to tears right now.

A flashback: all those trainings we had for FAC. All those sweat,blood and tears we spent on them. It's all over now. It's like the end of NDP again. lol. So saddening...

Even in my friend's blog,there were words that were related to you...why do you keep appearing in my life??

Weeee!!! So happy that HSRCY has gotten a 3rd in North District for FAC'09 :D Surprisingly. lol. But of course, we didn't do it all by ourselves. We had Ms Lim, Ms Vani and Yu Ping ma'am's help :D -bows- Let's clap for them. lol.

Actually I don't think we did really well for the overhead obstacle. lol. But luckily the theory paper and bandaging station was well done :P

I saw him today. My heart almost broke into two. I could only guess at the pain he went through. I am sorry. It was with me today,you know. I just didn't have the courage to give it to you. Everytime I see you in real life, baby, my heart does a double take and a back flip. Please stop doing this to me. I am imploring you. Please.

lalala. Don't feel like blogging anymore. lol. This blog is like dead already la. lol.

Busy with FAC preparations these few days. The competition is just next week. Urgh. I get the feeling I will embarrass myself T.T

Have been borrowing books from the library and reading a lot recently. But besides reading and talking online now,there isn't much for me to do anymore. No games are appealing to me now. lol.

Holidays are here soon =) But will be pretty busy with holiday lessons,FDC (if participating) and Chem AEM. And amidst all this,I am going to try to find space for my overseas holiday!! lol. I very long never go overseas liao lor. 2years,i think T.T Poor me. Haha.

Today went with YOG group to film about Rojak. LOL. Introduce Singapore's deliccacy. It took us a long time to get the courage up to ask teachers and stall holder for permission to film them. lol. But we did it! Let recording voices and powerpoint slides ^^

Wallowing in depression does me no good,that much I know. Self-pity does not help at all,that much I DO know as well. What I don't know,is how I could have allowed myself to get that kind of atrocious results. It was absolutely unbelievable. I can only be comforted with the thought that I was not the only one. How pathetic.

Next thing I don't understand is why I am missing you so much. I shouldn't,you know. Oh hell. You DO know. I made that clear enough. Well,I am not sorry for what I said,but I still miss you. I have no idea why. Maybe it was because of your overflowing friendliness,or perhaps it was your sensitivity around me. Damn it. I miss you. How long more do I have to wait for you to talk to me initiatively?

Last but not least,I realised that playing the piano is a good way for me to release my emotions. I can play rather well :D So I guess this means I should let go of my emotions more often. Though I can't say I like the feeling much. But it feels good to just let everything go. Well,the neutral ones remained,because of lack of happiness/sadness energy,but those over bubbly ones are gone now. Now it's only you and me,buddy. You and me.

Another tiring,exhausting day. Somehow,I had ended up with muscle cramps. No idea how I acquired them. lol. I went to Kranji mangrove in the afternoon while the tide was low to dig for bivalves. I have a habit. I don't eat what I catch/dug for. Haha. And I got myself cut by a crab T.T I always go to the mangrove barefooted. lol.

Today I also created a How Well Do You Know Me quiz on facebook. 10 questions in total. To me,60% is pass. 50% is still fail. LOL. The highest so far is Nutty with 70%. lol. I guess the questions were a teeny weeny little bit too hard. First time I created such a quiz, I really wanted to know how well people knew me. I didn't create it for the fun of it. So yea. lol. Go try it out if you haven't ^^ http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/quiz.jsp?q=19457968

Live life the way you will as though tomorrow is the last day you will live.

Ooooo~ I haven't been here in a long long time. lol. Almost 1 month. Haha. A chaotic,hectic,busy month. I don't even know where to start. lol. Okay. Maybe I won't. Let's leave it at that. What's past is past. The emotions I have gone through,those important and unimportant,are written in my diary. That's all that matters,really. lol. Some things are really too personal to share. Maybe I should consider closing this blog. O.O let's see how things goes. Haha.

Hmmm...my SA was rather badly done,especially for Phy and Chem T.T terrible. If I don't fail,I will be happy. -sigh-

I WANT TO CHANGE MY WADROBE!!!!

FAC is coming soon...time to get started. -sigh- I wonder how things will go. Dread and anticipation filling me as time passes by. Fate was meant to be predestined. Not planned. Hard work was meant for success. Not failure. Friends were meant to be there for support. Not disappointment. Life was meant to be fulfilling. Not wasted.

How will my life go on from now? That I do not know. I just wish for life to be simple. Uncomplicated. And I will be damned if such a thing will ever happen.

I have realised that family relationships are really important. Without these ties,we would all be just scattered. My paternal grandmother has just passed away on Wednesday early morning. My paternal grandfather passed away about 20 years ago,so now that the 2 head people of the Wang family are gone,I really have no idea what's going to happen now. The maid hired for my late grandmother is going back to Philipines. The house...I don't know. Burn it,sell it,rent it out?? No idea. I think she left a will...but well,people are still gonna fight over it.

Ever since Wednesday,I have been getting home LATE and sleeping LATER than ever. Gosh. Every night (except for 1 night) come home at around 12midnight,then need to wash hair,so sleep at 2am -.- So tired. Last night my family had to shou ye,so we only slept for 2hours =.= Worse than HSRCY camp. -sigh- but for my beloved grandmother,it's definitely worth it. But actually everyday go there is like just to do nothing but rituals(there were quite a few). Oh yea,'cause my grandmother was a Cantonese,so all the immediate family need to wear a kind of uniform. Something like those you see on television. In fact,it IS those kind. lol. My 2nd bro wear,he looks like Sang NIla Utama. But when I wear,I look like the 7th lunar month ghost T.T 'cause cannot tie up hair. Then everyone keep on sweating,'cause we all wear 2 layers. Phew.

Today was the last day of the funeral. When the priests and band were conducting the last ritual,my aunts were really sobbing their hearts out. Afterall,ladies tend to be more emotional than men (NONE of the men cried!!). One of my aunt cried until she fainted!! I feel so...useless standing behind there -.- All of us haven't been getting enough sleep and the weather was rather warm. -sigh- After that,we were to wear socks,no shoes and walk on the road to sort of send my grandmother off. Then we got onto buses and went to the Mandai Crematory. At the viewing gallery,I...cried. It's the first time I actually cried in funerals. And this is my 5th funeral that I have attended so far throughout my life. I didn't cry at the rituals,but I cried at almost the last moment. Actually,before that I was thinking "Why aren't I crying?? She had treated me so well when she was alive. I should be crying for her" Then suddenly my vision blurred and tears spilled over T.T I thought my bros would at least give me a hug lor,but they never. Hmph!

Oh well...it's finally over. And I won't be able to see my grandmother again. Except the picture for praying la. lol. It's time to get back to my world again. Homework,homework and more homework. sian. 2 more weeks till SA2. T.T I am sooo gonan fail again -BIG SIGH-

I had a terrible day today ._. I am so damned stressed. Arghhh!! I am so gonna fail my Economics for SA2. I can feel it. Maybe Chemistry too. -sobs- But I can't do much about my Econs!! Mr Ang hasn't been coming for lessons recently.

Today I got nagged. Apparently, I am guilty of inconsiderate of juniors' welfare,irresponsible and too decisive. Does this even sound like me?? I mean seriously,if you consider yourself my friend,think about these characteristics and see if they fit on me? I am not trying to say that wow,I am so considerate of others' feelings,so responsible,etc because I know I am not. But I know I am not 100% inconsiderate,irresponsible either!

Jeez. Teachers nowadays keep saying that if we have questions,we must ASK! But if teachers have questions,do they ask?? NO! They just keep quiet,observe how things go,then scold you when things go wrong -.- It's like...wow. I am not stereotyping teachers,but well,think about it. Which teacher likes to be told that he/she is wrong? They have a higher amount of pride as comapred to us students,right? Afterall,they are supposed to be right in almost every other issue since they are adults,and we are just...kids.

Alright. Enough time spent typing this. I have a Physics test tomorrow and I can't afford to fail it. Haha.

I had such a long day today~! So tired. This morning I woke at 6.30AM!! 'Cause I need to reachs school by 7.15am. Well,apparently none of the juniors fall in 15min,so -shrugs- No comments. Today wah,seriously....SO MANY PEOPLE CAME LATE LA!! Then I had to keep looking at the attendance list to see who else is late,who else is not here,etc -.- kind of irritating. Somemore those people who fall in early/on time,had to wait for so long. Wrong attire kenna scolded. Fidget also have to get scolded. So poor things T.T -pat juniors- Get used to it. Unless you can get those people to come earlier. -sigh-

Then we went to Lim Chu Kang mangrove to pick litter and collect data. I think it's the first time I actually STEPPED into a mangrove. I mean yea,I have been to the mangrove a few times,but I always left soon after. Ehhh,nono. I have stepped onto a mangrove before. When I went to catch some....stuff. LOL. But anyway,I was grouped with Elysia,Jiaying and Ryan. We were to collect plastic stuff. Haha. And that included a lot,you know. Like chairs,plastic bags,plastic containers,etc. I think the total of your rubbish was about 9kg+ :D Cool. We sweated gallons just for that,you know. Haha. In the end,we collected everything we saw la. lol. Like styrofoam,sponge (omg! I saw a plant that GREW on the sponge! So cute :D) and metal. Things that were washed up by the sea when it was high tide. This programme was organised by NUS. Every year,they have people to clear beaches,mangroves,etc while collecting data on what kind of rubbish is collected. We spent atound 3hours there ba. Then we went back to school already.

After returning to school,those who were going for the Scouts Campfire stayed back to rehearse for our performance. Luckily today my piano teacher cancelled my piano lesson =P So...they rehearsed la (I not performing :D) before going for lunch at Hougang Point's Mac. Then lalala,came back to school and didn't rehearse anymore. LOL! 'Cause after lunch ma,then will become very sleepy. Since all no mood to rehearse,then slack lor. lol. Juniors went to play basketball while sec3s gossiped and chatted. Well,I was one of those who listened more than talked,of course. Haha. After some time,the sec3s played with the juniors and I actually ENJOYED playing basketball for the first time. 'Cause I can't score! But I scored today. Wow~! Haha. Then we realised something...the Scouts didn't expect HSRCY to have a performance. Well,then some unhappy things followed. But in the end,we DID get to perform la. So thank you,HS Rangers :D Even though I only spent a few hours attending the campfire,I could see that everyone of you spent a lot of effort on it. Congratulations on having such a successful campfire ^^

I finally reached home at 10.30pm+ So hungry now... -sigh- So tired too. My palms clap until pain lor. Then my throat shout until cannot shout already. Lol. -sigh- Sian ah!! Saturday already. Tomorrow Sunday,last day of my "holiday" -.- Tomorrow I going out with family to celebrate my eldest bro's lunar birthday ^^ Luckily I don't have anymore homework left. Phew. Jiayou for those who haven't finished their holiday homework!! :)

Wah. sian. Today go for Emath lesson,got more homework to do. LOL. Like go back school to get MORE homework. lol. But you can't not go back school either. -sigh- Tomorrow got Amath PLUS chem TT.TT More than half day gone. It's like my holiday is over already -.- how pathetic. But well,I can't complain,can I? Heard that SA2 is like in the first week of Oct o.o!! there's not enough time!! I better start studying already T.T

Hmm...not many people I can chat with recently. So bored. All so busy...sian. I guess I am off to bed. I have to wake up at 6am+ tomorrow for school. -sigh-

:) my blogger is finally back to normal. -sigh- Emo-ing~ I am wondering if I have depression ._. lol. I get sad and emo easily...

Wow. I spend the whole day slacking. How pro is that? Today's electricity bill must amount to quite a sum. Haha. Something very interesting happened today. I had a chat with Viceroy after such a long time. 2years,in fact. Another friend who came back T.T thank you.

Ahhh. It's been some time since I blogged. Some topics are too sensitive to be discussed here,so I wrote it in my diary. Haha.

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Someone has just passed away. I know because there's a funeral at the basketball court in my neighbourhood. I know because of the songs that they play are the same as those I heard at my grandpa's funeral... May you have a nice life in heaven,whoever you are T.T this is so sad. Leaving all your loved ones. Never seeing them again. -cries-

Today is a bit of a lonely day for me. Early in the morning went to piano lesson,where I got scolded again. lol. I didn't wish Annie a Happy Teachers' Day O.O No mood to do so (actually I didn't want to say it at all) ... Then I came home,slack here and there before I went to shower and go to Compass Point. I went to library to return my books first before I went to change into shorts :P Then I met with Zy then...studied a little? I mean,what do you call the activity whereby the two of you keep talking while sort of studying? -.- His hair very nice to ruffle up!!! Best thing is: he's a guy,so he doesn't need to comb it back or anything :D Then in the library cold mah,then his scalp is body temperature,so ya...very comfortable. Haha! Really la. My eldest bro also has this kind of hair de...before he cut it too short to be able to be messed up. lol. Had a fun time there,though I sort of slipped into emo-ness. lol. Nothing to do with you,Zy. Really. I just sort of...tripped emotionally. LOL. If you can understand what I mean.

Then I went to Bishan Library. When I came home after my piano lesson,I already got to know Kyx is going to be there. But I still went there -.- How stupid is that? But really...I don't have much choice. Besides,the library is pretty large. We probably wouldn't meet each other,right? Boy,was I dead wrong...I saw him,right there -.- I didn't want to bother him,so I went downstairs to find a space to study myself. See,I so nice la. lol. Then when we finished at around 5pm,we simultaneously went downstairs to meet. Then we sort of walked out together. lol. It was kind of awkward ._. But nvm,it's over ^^

Actually today,I was supposed to go cycling with 6D+Ms Ngo at Est Coast. But cher sick,so the plan changed to having dinner at Chomp x2. And duh,don't need to think also know I cannot go,right? I could also go watch movie with Yiling,Elysia and Peifoong and friends de. But I am not in the mood to watch movies. I am still not ready to face fantasy again. So yea. I ended up studying. LOL.

The song "Stay the same" by Joey McIntyre never fails to bare my heart till the point of vulnerability. It reminds me of the days in HSRCY. Those long,sweaty,trainings and camps that bring back the sweetest and most touching moments(: I LOVE HSRCY!!

Ps. Zy,you're really nice to hit!! Hair is also very very nice to ruffle!!:D


When will we...talk again?

Phew. I am like so tired. I had muscle ache from yesterday's footdrill accred,but today I still went to play badminton. LOL! I played with Zhiyuan and Peifoong. Haha. 2girls vs 1 guy. Sounds a bit unfair,right? Haha. But I would say that it was equal. Today my whole body is like -wow- jelly~~ -wobble,wobble- The wound I had gotten from my fall still has not healed yet,and I had attained abrasion from yesterday's accred. lol.

Just now I just kept laughing laughing. >.< The two of them must think that I am nuts. lol. But really ma...no one talk -.- like so awkward lor. Hmmm...all of us got kind of wet from the rain. Zhiyuan and Peifoong must drink more water and rest well,kay? Cannot be like me. Sick already still go play and went under the rain. LOL. Take care~

You still have not forgiven me,huh...Why do I keep thinking about you?? I should have forgetten about you long ago...

Yay! Everyone in my unit who went for FD Gold passed! Haha! Well done!! So happy that we managed to pass. After weeks of training with Yuping ma'am and the HQ VIs, we finally made it! Weee~ lol. Next week finally can go back to my unit and see how things are. Haha. I am kind of curious about how things were without us.

-shag- Everyday have test (and I mean everyday! T.T) then still need prepare full u,still have tuition >.< Lucky I canceled my piano lessons. I really have no time. lol. But I am kind of dreading to go back... -sigh- It resumes next week TT.TT

Oh yea. I've started a diary...I mean those books which you write your journals in. 'Cause I can really express out my feelings in there. Haha. I hope no one is ever able to read it. Maybe after I am dead and someone discoveres it a decade later. That would be cool ^^

Today me,Elysia and Kevin were among the first few batches to take accred~ Haha. Then me and Elysia went to the bus stop and saw Hulk and Beatrice. It's been a long time since I talked to ndp'08 people. I suddenly miss ndp'08 T.T Then me,Elysia and Beatrice went to Plaza Sing to eat lunch at food court. Then chat chat chat~ Haha. Had a fun time~

I saw a lot of people at the campsite today. Haha. Hope Zhiyuan passes his Evac Gold and Keyuxuan passes his RCV Gold ^^

Yesterday I fell emotionally,today I fell physically T.T PE ma...then ya. lol. Feeling very confused...very very. Any counsellor out there? Or maybe some mental test? ._. Never mind...I have a lot to do today. Doing up my full u later. Then still need study for Amath and Physics testS tomorrow!! Oh yea...I finished watching my drama already. So please reco some new ones to me :D thanks :)

Perhaps I am just trying to drown myself in studies to prevent myself from thinking...too much.

To you:

You are really sweet. You are really sensitive. You are everything a girl can hope for. I am sorry things had to end this way. The only reason I can offer to you is that I am not ready for a relationship. And because...I don't feel the same way for you as you do for me. I do care for you. But just as a friend. If you ever need someone, I hope that you will remember that I will be here. I love you, my very best friend.

Finally. Time for blogging. Haha. Long post ahead!

21st August
I had my chem retest. Pretty easy since the questions were reused from CA3 test paper. But since we're going to just take 50% of the marks only,no matter how well I do,I just get a pass,don't I? lol. It's still better than nothing. Haha. Then I had FD gold training...Sweat like nobody's business. lol. Yu Ping ma'am train us like...wow. Everyone's legs were like jelly after that. Haha! Came home and rushed to polish my boots. After that,I had night class at Tampines. Another boring lesson with Collin -.-

22nd August
Semi-big day. I had a huge row with my dad the night before. So I went down to campsite with Elysia and Agnes,without my father's presence. Woke at 6.30 -.- HQ training for FD gold T.T Kenna sunburnt like meat on bbq. lol. Having sore throat at the end too. Muscle aches everywhere -.- But it was fun! haha. Kind of tiring,though. 9-5.30pm. I went home with Qiao Ni,since that SOMEBODY don't want play badminton with me. HERGH! By the time I reached home,it was like 8pm. LOL! After I eat my dinner,I was so tired that I went to bed straight away. Konked out immediately too. Haha!

Today
I woke at 10am,I think. lol. So tired from yesterday. Another reason I slept early last night was because of the photo shoot today. My eldest bro is graduating. His gf is also graduating. My 2nd bro next year graduating too. Left me TT.TT 10 more years to my graduation. lol. So today my whole family + bro's gf (fiancee)had a family photo shoot ^^ I was forced to wear a miniskirt...and forced to put on make-up. I look like ghost lor!! walao....First time I put on make-up for so long -.- My 2nd bro sometimes catch me off-guard and will say "ZAO GENG LE!",then I scared ma,will look down check -.- Then he will laugh. Sadist. Then I had to smile at the camera and the stupid photographer say my skirt too short,so I had to sit low -.- I jsut managed to remove my make-up....now my face is so stiff >.< -sigh- sleeping early tonight too. Tired. Haha. Good night!

-yawn- so tired these days even though I have been slacking like nobody's business. Haha.

Econ's business...well,it didn't go as well as anticipated. Everyone sadly lacked buyers during the lower sec's recess. lol. Don't know why. Upper sec recess was better,but still not many people bought T.T In the end,Jiaying sold the remaining packet of un-fried fries to the canteen vendors at a lost. lol. But well,overall we did earn money,but just not as much as the 1st time round. Maybe this is because of the high costs incurred this time. -shrugs- I jsut hope I pass my econs -.-

I had footdrill gold training with Jiaying,Elysia and Vivian on that day too. Yu ping ma'am taught us. Haha. Sadly,I still can't get the hang of it T.T I can't do slow march!! How??? Eeeeeekkk!! Better buck up! This saturday is HQ modular workshop le. Cannot disgrace HSRCY!

At night...British Council again -.- Saw Collin again -.- Saw Jie Pin,Jane,Mardhiana and Felicia again ^^ lol. We did some stupid stuff again. At the end of the lesson,Jie Pin came out of the room with a paper cut. Ouch. Then all ask me what to do,what to do,'cause she bleeding quite a bit for a paper cut. Too bad I didn't have a plaster on hadn that time. So I asked her to wash off the blood till it's like numb before dabbing it dry >.< Was that correct? I don't know!! lol. All I knew was that I can't let Jie Pin know I don't know,cause she will panic. I know that much,okay? Haha. Hope her cut healed.

Having a series of math tests in the following days T.T Hope I ace them all. Wish me luck! Haha.

Urgh. So tired. Today I used up a lot of brain juices. After surviving 4 periods of Amath,I had to go various places to buy stuff for my group's Econs stall. First,I went to Econ Minimart,then came back to school. Then went to Hougang Point. Then go Sheng Siong. Lost our way there too. LOL! 3 lu chi wandering around. Walk like 1 or 2km. Haha! Bought tons of heavy things. All carry until fingers want to break already. Then we(jy,hui mimn and me) went to Compass Point to look for Water Babies. Today is the first time I have ever heard and seen of them,you know. They're so cute!! I want to buy one for myself too. Haha. This time round of setting up a stall had many obstacles. We couldn't find suitable non-food item to sell at first. We went through ideas like Daiso Clips,Stressballs,Paperballs(I know.Who will want to buy? But we were desperate!!) We didn't want to sell water babies at first,'cause of the high cost and limited supply at Comic Connection. Then we managed to find more supply at Popular!! But more expensive >_< Hope that tmrw there will be people buying my group's stuff. Haha. Good luck to all other competitors too!

I have had enough...

Yay~ I finally have the time to blog. Haha. School NDP is finally over. No more staying back after school to train. But no more having freedom. Sad. Heard that there won't be a Speech Day Parade T.T And yesterday was my last day wearing the 08 NDP badge TT.TT -sobs-

I just came back from "touring" around Singapore. LOL. Joking. Haha. This morning went with Mrs Lai,Jy and Elysia to go recce for the CIP thingy at Lim Chu Kang. Some really wulu place. Then the coordinator said need to have construction gloves,disposable trash bags plus a weighing scale -.- So Mrs Lai dropped us off at AMK mrt station along with some money and we went down to Beach Road's Army Market to buy those stuff. That place ah,seriously hard to find siah!! We took 107 from Lavender and either we didn't alight at the right point or the bus simply didn't bring us there. lol. In the end,we bekchek until go take taxi. Haha! Then we bought the gloves and trash bags but they don't sell weighing scales!! So we like walked around the entire estate (exaggerating a little),trying to find a shop that sells such a thing -.-

After we finally managed to find one,we went back to the hawker centre to eat our lunch at around 12noon. I was so hungry by that time,that I was nauseous (maybe it was because of the driver,if you know which one I am talking about -ahem-) lol. Guess I am too used to my dad's driving style. Haha. No offence. By the time we finally finished eating and boarded the bus,it was already 1pm+. Then on the bus,we talked about having an evacuation day camp and chalet to bond the unit. Weee~~ But a lot of things have to be considered la,seriously. It's not as simple as saying 'I want to go' and we can all go. I wish life was that simple. -sigh-

Then we finally reached Compass Point at 2pm. LOL. Terrible time management,I know. But we weren't exactly on a time limit. lol. So tired. Totally shag. EEEEEKKK!! I just remembered my full u haven't wash yet -.- it's real stinky. My chem test is just round the coner...next thursday. lol. My dad is pushing me to get an A or something -.- I can't even read my Eclipse!!! Right,I am off to read it. My dad is napping :D Bye~

Oh dear...I am hallucinating. Jeez. This morning I went to HDB hub to eat brunch with my parents and my 2nd aunt. Then cause it's Toa Payoh ma,then it's like I would see that every guy with centre parting is him at first glance. Then I will need to stare a bit longer to convince myself that it is NOT him -.- So stupid. How could he have done that after just a brief dumb chat?? I am getting too paronoid...I should get him out of my brain...

When I came back home,it was already about 1pm le. lol. I had only 6hours of sleep last night...my brain is tired from the whole of last week's training. Mentally exhausted. lol. I came back home and slept 4straight hours -.- tonight sure cannot sleep one. Then need to be tired the whole week again until the next weekend comes. -sigh- how ironic.

Nothing much to do,except for homework and I really don't want to do them. So difficult la -.- the questions,I mean. Not that it's difficult to not do them. lol. First time,though. I not doing homework...I think I am really going bad >_<

Phew. Barely have time to breathe. These few days are seriously hectic. And I mean seriously.

Friday after school,straight away training. Then after training,straight away rush home,change clothes,ate a quick dinner and off to tuition. By the time I reached home,it was already 10pm -.- Totally no time to do anything but try and prepare my brain for the next thing I am going to do.

Today was rather fun and very slack. lol. Went with unit to East Coast to celebrate Red Cross's 60th anniversary. All the sec3s did the walk event,which was really really slack,except for screaming your lungs out. lol. Then after that,I chionged home to have a quick shower then I go for my piano lesson already. Well,seeing as how I did not even have time to chill,how could I have the time to practice piano? But Annie was rather patient. Phew~ Normally she blows her top up a little.

Just finished my Amath homework. Left with chem,which I really looked through,and I have no idea how to do. Physics...really don't have the mood to do homework. See my mood for tomorrow first T.T

Really tired. Throat a bit pain le...the consequence of screaming too much,without doing vocal warm up. lol. Next week is another week of training~ Jiayou!!

So tired~ these few days having trainings for school NDP. lol. My drills seriously cannot make it. Can someone please train me? T.T

Oh yea...my eldest bro has just grduated from Uni... Damn it. That day he still so happily laugh at me--someone with 10 more years to go before graduating -.- Feel like hitting him. A year more,and my 2nd bro would grduate too le ba...so sad. I would be the only one left in the studying group T.T

Tomorrow is one of the rehersal for school NDP le...a bit sian. Not all the people are turning up -.- So tired~~ I go sleep le. lol. Bye~

25th July
Nothing much. Just went out to some hotels restaurant to eat lunch. Celebrate my chinese bdae and my eldest bro's grduation. haha. He studied for 20+ years le,finally can graduate. haha. 10 more years for me T.T So sad. Then his gf gave me a pink pencilbox. HAHA! For those complaining that my current pencilbox is SMALL,the one she gave me is SMALLER! haha! very pink. I think she got the idea that I like pink because I useD to like Hello Kitty. haha. Hey,it was still better than liking some ninja turtle when you're growing up with 2 typical males =D

25-26th July = midnight
I wasn't in much studying mood,so I waited till my parents to sleep before watching movies ♥♥ It's my latest addiction. And FYI,when I get addicted to something,it's going to take some time for me to de-passion it. haha. So far,I have watched Twilight,which I really really love (the main couple look so good together!!),Music and lyrics (I only like the song they created -.- ) and the one I am currently watching,Another Cinderella Story (the couple looks so compatible too!!) ♥♥

Watching the modern Cinderella story has brought back all those fantasies which I thought had left me forever. The story makes me feel as though life isn't the end yet. Life is still long. I remember when I was in primary school,kindergarden even,I built sand castles in the air when the lesson was totally boring. Haha. After I finished my daydream,I was always in a better mood =P When I came into secondary school,I still had them in my sec1s and 2s. But when I came into my sec3 life,...I totally forgot about my fantasies. Whether it was because of the lack of time or stress,I do not know. But I do know that Cinderella has made me remember my lonely childhood and led me to think that fairytales can never come true...I suddenly thought of layteng telling me last year that she believes fairytales do come true. That time,I thought "Really?". Her one statement has led me to think much about fantasies.

There's a reason why I only read romance novels. I know that they are totally fiction,but I just stop myself from reading them. Remember that I just mentioned that it's hard for me to get an un-addicted to something I love? Romance novels ARE still one of them. They are just like fairytales...whether it's a damsel in distress and a knight in shining armour comes along,or love at first sight... I still don't believe they happen in real life. I guess this proves the theory that movies influences our thinking is false. haha...

This sounds totally girly,right? :) Sometimes,don't expect too much from me. I am just an ordinary girl. Someone with a little girl's dreams.

16th July
Had my NAPFA test for inclined pull-ups and shuttle run. lol. passed both,of course :D Then me,Jy and vivian were going to look on the sec1s who were doing their banner design for SRC 60th anniversary. So sad la. Only 3 out of the entire sec 1 batch came -.- Wenxin,Yingern and Joey. lol. Then we heard someone in 1E5 was hurt,so me and Jy go help out. lol. Help out as in doing first aid la. Casualty's arms and kneecap was scraped kind of badly...I wonder if we used the wrong dressing...ah,nvm. What's past is past. lol.

Then all go home~~ Me and Jy go compass,so that I could go buy the chain for the ring :D Then we went our separate ways. lol. By the time I reached home,it was already like 6pm. I was so paranoid that my dad would call up to spot check or maybe my bros had already returned home ._. but luckily,they weren't :D Then after showering,I tried on the necklace. Looks really nice!! :)

17th July
Had a really freaky busy day!! First period was English and that friggin' Mrs Lin,caused me and Jy to be late for Econs -.- Tell us what must do YOG script then look good in resume,blah blah blah =.= like I want to waste time do such thing just to have a nice looking resume.

Then after Econs,chiong to Recess,then quickly eat,then chiong to Physics lab -.- After Physics,joi Chem test....then Amath. Chem test,I think that I might have done better than last time? I don't know...I was like @.@ after physics lesson. lol. Then Amath lesson...well,I have no clue on how to do Binomial questions in the first place,so what Miss Huang is teaching is just flyin past my head. lol. So disheartening T.T I hate math that I can't understand. lol. And some going-to-be-neighbour is renovating his house -.- so noisy....I couldn't study even if I wanted to :/ I just came back from British Council....We researched about Mammoths and Musk Ox. Looks cute,right? Furry,furry one. hahaha. Then a bit of presentation,blah blah then released. lol. Tomorrow still have to wake up early,so I am off ^^

Today,I was actually very confused about what I am going to do about you...Was I to give in and apologise or keep on the silence and let things be? I had decided to let things be,when you came along and explained. But I have still decided to let things be. So please...please understand...the attitude I will take on...I have my reasons.

Today officially 15 le~ lol. So sad,older by one day le. Haha. This year's celebration is the wildest and most surprising one. lol. This morning I woke up and saw 4 well wishes le. lol. So happy :D Then I go school,first person I met was Jiaying. lol. The other birthday girl. haha. Then Nut came...with a HUGE minitoons bag. lol. Which was apparently my present(shared with caocao and elysia daddy)--a LARGE ladybird stuff toy named Moo :)) haha. Then Qiao Ni came in. haha. Then Peifoong~ She gave me a pack of Famous Amous de cookies~~!! haha. Then we High at 3E1. LOL!

Then went back to class,totally slacking the whole day -.- couldn't get anything into my head. The ladybird is so big that I had to put it on my lap. lol. Don't want to put on floor in case it got dirty ma =) After school,we (Jy,me,ely,pf,nut,caocao,lingyan) went Bishan~~ To eat lunch at Carte something. lol. Then we went Compass Point... lol. Because Jiaying say want show me her "man".... Then the gullible me and the group went to see...And I saw him. lol. I was so surprised la. I was so shocked that my legs went totally jelly. eeekkkk! lol. Apparently,elysia daddy had liaised with him so that I didn't expect him at all!! Gosh! haha. So sweet :X !! But in future,PLEASE do not do such things again,okay. My heart cannot stand such shocking events. haha.

Lastly,my thank you list for those who gave me wellwishes and presents (according to the time I received your wellwishing) :

1. Ying Lun(3min early,my dear man. haha)
2. Ambrose Sir (LOL! Thank you,sir! haha)
3. Elysia Daddy (Muacks! Thanks for planning such a heart-weaking event!! haha)
4. Yuan Rong ( :)) thanks for everything)
5. Nutty ( Mooooo~~ hahaha)
6. Qiao Ni (Moooomooomooo -eat your tong lei- =PP)
7. Juan Peng (Smile more la,grass. haha. you look better when you smile)
8. Peifoong ( -huggies- love you ^^)
9. Brenda
10. Jiawei
11. Shermaine
12. Pei Xuan
13. Eunice HENG (I am NOT qi guai)
14. Melissa
15. Michelle
16. Lynette
17. Ann
18. Yiling
19. Laureen (Moroonnnn :DD)
20. Ling Yan (thanks for the sweeetss ^_^)
21. Hui Si
22. Si Hui (surprised you remembered O.O :DD)
23. Zhi Yuan
24. My 2nd bro
25. My eldest bro
26. Moyhong?? (I rmb you said happy bdae to me...forgot what time though,lol)
27. Suharyo (LATE by a day!! haha,thanks anyway,math genius)

Yep,that's it,I think. Lol. Tell me if I have left out your name ^^ Thanks again to all for making my 15th birthday so special :))

Happy Birthday,Jiaying Mummy ^^

OMGOMG!! 2 more hours till I turn 15!!!

So ya...haha. But I am kind of anticipating it actually ^_^ I like the number 15 =)

A bit sian though...tomorrow is still a school day. Supposed to hand in a script for YOG de...but heck care la. lol. I never wanted to join anyway =X

1 and a half more hours till I am officially 15~ lol. Today me and jiaying high at our desks. lol. We sit beside each other ma. Then she keep telling everyone tomorrow is my bdae but excluding the part that it's also her bdae tomorrow. LOL!!

Okok,I am going to sleep already. lol. I don't want panda eyes tomorrow. haha. Don't think anyone will msg me at 12 ba. lol. So I guess I am quite safe =P kk,buh-bye~

Don't feel like writing a compo...so yea,I will just use the typical Singlish. haha. Today was kind of tiring (which school day isn't) lol. Had double periods of history before recess which I almost fell asleep in even though the facts were interesting. Then I had FOUR straight periods of Amath (almost died) but I still don't regret choosing Amath instead of Emath for the 4periods. lol.

Then had NAPFA T.T standing broad jump has always been my weakest and this year is no exception. By the time I reached home,it was around 4.15 already. Bought Tomyam (my favourite!!) cup noodles for lunch. lol. Yesterday cooked maggie mee for lunch...I know I shouldn't be eating these unhealthy food,but yea... haha.


Tomorrow another LOOOOONNNGGG day. sian. -sigh- i should catch up on my sleep during the weekends. I just finished most of my homework,btw =P only left those that I don't really like ;D

Jeez. Yesterday night marked the start of another 4more months of British Council. Apparantly,Collin just came back from Melbourne,so he was still under quarantine last night. Thus,another teacher named James,took over for the night. I swear,teachers are getting from bad to worse...Andrew was the best,Nick was still pretty good,Collin was tolerable,but James is totally OFF!! -.- My comments about him shall wait. I shall start with the class first.

Hmm...new semester,so some new people came in while some "old" students went out. Alison,my best "Red Cross" matey went out T.T -missing you,Alison- Later shall go her blog tag her =P Without her,the table was rather quiet...
Alison:
I miss your sudden smiles,
I miss your beautiful eyes.
Without thee,thou life is utterly incomplete...

Ahhh...LOL. that was some crap poem I came up with as I typed this post. lol. So the "table" (of course we are always being separated) currently consists of Me,Mardiana,Jie Pin,Jane and Felicia. -sigh- 2 new guys and 2 new girls are in the class. Besides that,all's about the same. EXCEPT the GRRRR relief teacher,James -.-

He's a bit short...a bit baldish (that's why he made his hair stand up,to seem that he has a lot hair) and very -shhhh- idiotic. Normally when the students are late,they will just walk in,look a bit sheepish,then quickly walk to their tables and settle down. Does it sound a bit impolite? It's perfectly normal ^^ the NORMAL teachers would just fill them in what happened,and carry on with the lesson and that would be the end of things. HOWEVER,this teacher made the late students knock,say "Hi",say sorry,say reason for being late... total waste of time? ... Poor David...he was the 1st one being late and didn't know what hit him when he walked in and made to go to his seat but the teacher TOLD him to go back out and come in when he was ready.

Made a huge fuss over replying to him,closing and opening the textbook -.- I have goosebumps just as I recall last night.... Can we have Collin back? Pretty pretty pleaseeeee??

First day of school till now has been really slack. lol. First day come school,all must walk in through the field,then queue up for teachers to get our individual temperatures taken -.- These few days I have been sitting with Yiling,fun~ haha. First day of school,I come back home,eat lunch around 1pm already...then I totally died of boredom...somemore that day it was raining heavily,then I am alone in the shadowed empty house...plus nothing to do...no one talk to me also...all not online,lucky i found one to talk with me on the phone :P

Seconday day...same routine,except that it wasn't raining heavily yesterday. haha.

So sian now...not wanting to do anything when I actually have to do a lot of things. -sigh- Actually wanted to paste the pics on last friday de...but can't seem to upload the pics,so never mind ba XP

Just came back from celebrating Nut's birthday. haha. Had a fun time. lol. But didn't take much pics. Happy Birthday,Nut ♥

Yiling,here is the list that you wanted. Haha. Enjoy those shows~

1. Smiling Pasta
2. Heavenly Gown
3. Dou niu yao bu yao
4. Witch Yee Hoo
5. My Bratty Princess
6. Gong S
7. Mean girl ah chu
8. Romantic Princess
9. Coffee Prince
10. Tokyo Juliet
11. Devil Beside You
12. Hana Kimi (taiwanese version) = Hua yang hua..shao nian
13. Love Contract
14. Meteor Garden
15. My MVP Valentine
16. My Girl
17. Green Forest, My Home
18. Lavender
19. Magicians of Love
20. The rose
21. My Lucky Star
22. Brown Sugar Macchiato
23. Fated to be in love
24. Heart of 19
25. Legend of speed
26. Miss no good
27. Invincible shan bao mei

Pics of yesterday's outing are on Peifoong's blog >> Go to the links ^^

Lol. Been waiting for pf or ely to post the pics taken yesterday but they still haven't post,so nvm ba,I just blog first :P when they post,then I kope :D

Yesterday went to Vivo to celebrate Elysia Daddy's birthday ^^ Hee. Had a really great time there. Haha. Lol. Only me and Peifoong was on time luh. lol. The others go Long John's to eat brunch so they late. Then we go down to Vivo~ I yesterday wore shorts,then super cold lor...On the Mrt,it was alerady freezing. When we reached Vivo,pf wanted to drink Sarbucks,so we all pei her go,all enjoying each other's presence. ^^ Then we went to buy movie tickets for Land of the Lost before going to the skypark where Nut and Qiao Ni awaited us with a mango cake~ haha. I learnt that tissue is definitely not a good substitute for napkins,'cause we all had difficulty eating it even though it was fun :P Then we chiong to Giant to buy some snacks to smuggle into the cinema :D It was a really great movie. Comical along with a dash of romance. Ahhhhh~ Totally my type . Heheh. We saw a trailer for "The Proposal" and me and pf want to watch it!! haha. On our way of the cinema,the group got seperated -.- so we met back at Candy Empire where he waited (with a jacket)~~ Hee, and we went home together~~ ♥ lol. Both of us were rushing to go home because of the typical reason--Parents. Haha. First time I planned for clique outing(even though I just modified slightly the plan Nut had -.-).

First time I went out with clique(as in really have fun). First time I watched a movie with friends. First time I wore a guy's jacket (besides my bros'). =) Hope all had a fun time,especially Birthday Girl/Daddy ^_^

A pic me and Pf took at the Mrt:

Muacks Peifoong ♥

Hmm...Today was quite upsetting in the afternoon. I felt like I was deprived of family love. lol. Don't really know how to explain,so forget it. I went Orchard with my 2nd bro and Mum,but didn't manage to buy anything even though I spotted something I like,because my Mum said white easily gets dirtied. Then came back home,typed out all my Amath solutions for submittion and here I am. super long lor,the Amath solutions -.- all those squares,cubes...I am glad they are over. haha. Then I asked my dad for permission to go out this fri and he gave it! Woots!! On the condition that I come back before night. Lol. At least better than nothing ^_^ Finally finished my homework,I super happy. Haha. School reopening soon >.< color="#333399">


Tag Replies:
Lingyan: Chey,I thought you finally had your own blog. I then dun wan go spam jiafa blog. lol. I tag hao le ^^
Jiaying: =) yea,will de. I hope. haha.

Haha. It's been barely 6days since I last posted and lots of things happened. lol. My close friends would have already known by now le. Hee. Yea,Yulin the loner finally has a guy who likes her le >.< and duh,of course she likes him back. If not,she wouldn't be so embarrassed typing this post. -BLUSH- We've known each other for like 3weeks. Lol. Surprising? Haha. I seriously doubt anyone would have expected this to happen to me ba. lol.

Anyway,congrats Peifoong,for finding your love too~ Haha. Though be careful oh'. Afterall,he's someone you met online. lol. No offence,Ying Lun. Haha. Hope Nutty can find her love soon. [Don't say you can't imagine it. You will de! If no one wants you,I will still want you ^^ sweet,right?] Jiaying mummy,hope you can get over him soon and find a better guy :) Forget that jerk,kay?

I thought I should change my blogskin after... yea,you know what I want to say :P So I changed it (obviously). Hope you guys will like it ^_^ Holidays ending soon...and I have NOT even studied a single bit -.- perhaps I should start,seeing as my Sem1 results were so screwed >.< My parents are on their way back home from Malaysia now. It's the first time I am not going with them for a holiday. But I don't regret not going,because I could go out with him (even though it was just a dinner). Haha. The sad thing was that we were spotted by my bro...but well,let's just see how things go ba ^_^ Tonight I went to my eldest bro's gf's house to eat dinner. It's been like at least 10 years since I had been there. Lol. I forgot to greet her father -.- I didn't whether he was her brother or what,so I never greet...not my fault la. Besides,I didn't even know whether her father was still alive or not since my bro never mentions him =.= But the dinner was rather healthy. And delicious,I guess. Haha. Yeah...so I guess I will end my post here ^^ Goodnight everyone~

I swear,I have cried more in this month than any other month in my life.

Been really busy these few weeks. Had a really fun time at hsrcy camp =D even though we made mistakes. Big time :P But it was a learning exprience for all. haha. I really felt the bonding in hsrcy at the end of the camp~! Hope everyone has toughened up after the camp. I for one,am now much used to waking up super early and slping super late. This characteristic is gonna be useful in ULP. These few days have been slping at 1am in the morning to do up our proposal. -sigh- but it still ain't good. In fact,it's BAD. Oh well...

I got back my results for Sem1 too...one word "disastrous". It's the first time in my life that I have failed so miserably. >.<>.< HOW??!!

I am so worried. So afraid. No emoticon can express the feeling I have been feeling for the past few days. Weeks,even. It's as though I am back to square one. And that's one place I don't want to be at ever again!! But the difference between square one and now is that I have more friends...though most seem to be drifting away,which is really heartbreaking to me. I thought I had gotten over it,but it seems like I have not. I thought I had gotten stronger,but it appears that I never had. The emotion I am feeling is one that is really distraught...somewhere near grief...but beyond tears. It has been at least a few years since I have felt like this...I really hate myself. Well,there ARE excuses I can use to explain my feeling like CCA,exam results,ULP,piano and the realisation that I am going to work soon. They DO contribute to my emo-ness,but deep down in my heart,I know that there is another factor out there that is causing me this heartache.

I have begun to distinguish a fake smile and a genuine smile that I wear. I am wearing more fake smiles now [though there are still real smiles to my friends] and I have grown more and more critical of the people around me. Perhaps that's the reason I am back to square one. I am listening to the songs on my blog as I type this and I found that the piano piece is somewhat like my feeling. I seriously don't like the me now.

It's doesn't matter if you don't understand this post. It's just for me to describe my emo-ness...

-sigh- so long never post le. >.< sorry...so many things have happened and started. I don't even know where to start. Let's just "restart" from my comments on SA1 ba.

Gone case. My history sure fail...phy and chem maybe will fail,econs might fail too. >.< and I can't afford to fail...unless I drop my Econs. EEEKKK!!! My dad is so gonna kill me. So I am currently grabbing as much happiness as I can catch :l

Today no exam,so got 1 "off" day. haha. Went to Bukit Batok to rackey for camp's hike with elysia,qiao ni,jiaying and jiawei[the only guy]. Sweated like nobody's business. Then went pasta mania for lunch. Though I didn't eat. I found that after my body's allocated "lunch time",I won't have the appetite to eat at other times. So yea...after that went to Toa Payoh to look for my dad,sun bian go library :P

So ends my off day. Sad. Came back home,slack slack,then ate my mom's ...errr...pumpkin rice? At least I think it is....don't ask. Then do some red cross stuff...sleeping soon. Very tired >.< Right. This ends my post :]

Super shag. Just had inline skating session with SSS. I only fell down once. Heheh. But that once was beri pain.. >.<>.< Bekchek. Haiz. Nothing much to blog about. Just hoping to have a nice weekend before I get back my horrendous results and get scolded by my dad:( Oh well...later have piano,die liao. piano exam just passed only,sure kenna from teacher later. -SIGH- still got 2 more homework to do...later ba. I now slack a bit before doing my piano theory :( bye...

Phew~ Been really busy these few days. Still going to be for the next few WEEKS. >.< No good news and the only bad news is that I won't be coming online for long periods of time from this week till next thurs...gonna be pretty busy preparing for exams,red cross training and camp,AND that stupid YOG thing. -.- Exams are next week....YOG training this thurs.....red cross training,just done finished....camp,"zai shuo".

Very scared about exams. Even though I think I know the concepts,I don't think I know how to answer questions. >.< -sigh- gone case le,sec 3....top10 fly away liao :'(

I had my 2.4 run last monday... :D lucky I passed first time. After my first round,I was like"uh-oh". Then after my second round,I was "die liao". But somehow,I still managed to pass. Yay! :D

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! Tomorrow I still have Emath test....2chapters!! ohmygod....I better go and study now. I don't want to FAIL!!! :'(

Oh,and my piano results might be coming out sometime this week ^^

20th March 2009

I did one chem practical (practice). I can say that I have failed it. Badly. -sigh- When the mixture never dissolve after stirring it for like 20min,I was almost crying. Then thank god,Ms Toh helped me. >.<

21th March 2009

Red Cross Art Festival 2009. The Finals. 9-5.30pm. Sad that we didn't win. -sigh- The RI dance was SUPERB-ly nice la. I especially like the movement when they open and close the fan with the music. So cooolllll~~ But other than that....nothing much.

Today

Morning went to have breakfast at Toa Payoh Hub with my grandma....Then go J8 and wait for my bro to collect something...Then come home slack until now. Later mgiht still have piano lesson. And as usual,I haven't practice. Sure get scolded later. -sigh-

Weee~~ Today was such a fun day out of my miserable and pathetic holiday week. Morning went to school to meet Jiaying,Elysia,Agnes,Qiaoni and Ellyn for rehersal for the Finals ^^ yep,we got into the finals! yay! Then we go Mrs Lai's house to do our tshirt design. Then after that,Ellyn go home and the rest of us go AMK Hub to buy shirts ^^ Fun,fun. Walk around here and there~~ Then we go New York New York to eat!! Woohoo!! First time eat there. I shared a plate of terriyaki chicken with Qiaoni,then Elysia ate a plate of fish fingers pasta?? And Agnes had a bowl of mashed potato with beef chops. Or something like that. Haha. I tasted a little of everyone's dish. Oiishii!! Heehee. All very nice. Next time my bdae,I want to request to go there eat liao :D even though it IS a little ex...but well,food tasted better than the high-class restaurants ^^ perhaps it's because of my friends ba =) Finally my dad let me go out. Haha. WELL...he didn't really have a choice. Since I just told him I go teacher's house to do something,then I left him hanging there :P Then after teacher's house visit, I plan what to do from there,call him,ask him to pick me up at AMK Library,where my mum works,AND where we planned to go after our lunch. Heehee. Cunning. After that, Nutnut came to look for us~~!! She looked so ultra cool with contacts luh!!! She's mine!! May lightning strike on any guys who dare to hit on her :D Then Elysia,Qiaoni,and Nutnut went home,then around 6.30pm,I got my dad to fetch Elysia and Agnes to come my house to iron the tshirt designs on ours shirts. LOL. Some complicated matters happened,and my shirt turned out the worst. haha. Then they go home,I ate dinner at home....and here I am ^^ after managing to complete like 1/2 of what's left of my homework. ^^ yay! So happy. Finally managed to go out with friends again ^^ even if it was just one day. ^^

I realised that I cry easily ._. which is not a good thing.,since I pride myself on being tough :l And even though I believe that I have promised myself not to trust my eldest bro anymore,I always end up trusting him again. Which is so pathetic... And so,after last night,I have really promised myself not to trust him ever again. I am going to do all I can to prevent him from getting any "secrets".

And I am starting to wonder if he hates me so much that he wants to see me fail my academic results. Afterall,it was because of him,that I chose Economics. Can I really bring myself to trust him again?

But people say that hating is much more tiring than loving. And I do understand that. But sometimes...Dislike just comes naturally and effortlessly.

Phew~ my hectic days are finally over. For now,anyway:)

13 March 2009

I finally had my piano exam...I was so ultra nervous >.<

Then I went back to school....go GO....then that stupid GO personnel -.- call my father to check and make sure I really did go for piano exam. Never mind. School rules,I understand. Then when my dad pick up phone,she just say in chinese "why is your daughter so late?" -.- My dad was like WTF! Then when I reach home,he tell me that his first thought was that I was late for piano exam,'cause the personnel never introduce herself,say where she is calling from,etc. Just straight away "why is your daughter so late?" =.= Somemore she give those kind of irritated expressions,like I offend her before like that -.- -pissed off even now- Then she still dare to ask "why your father sound so shock when he pick up the phone" ... So bekchek. My dad ask me why never use GO phone,use my hp...but he say lucky use my hp to call him...if not he wouldn't have picked up,'cause he was on course. Is the school on such budget that they have to hire such staff??

Haiz...say until fed up. Then I go class...amath lesson. Of course I was the extra one....since I am the only one late....lol. Then everyone stare at me. But I have learnt my lesson already. Not to look at them. Heheh. If not I would like just melt to the floor. Then I chose to postpone the chem practical,since the time might as well be used to rehearse for the audition which was on the next day. BC that night,was barely tolerable as well...that Collin split us up again -.- But I kinda liked the Sherlock Holmes story ^^

14th March 2009

Early in the morning woke up and went to school to do last minute rehearsings. When we actually did the real performance,it was alright,I guess. But I think I turned the volume a bit too loud. Then judges say the singers and I never like coordinate together. Then they sang a bit off pitch,but they like the song,'cause it was created by ourselves. the dance group was really "wow". Very cool. I like it. Haha. Today no piano lesson,'cause I forwarded it to last Thursday to help me practice more on my exam pieces. So slack slack,then go do finish my Emath homework. Just started on my amath and Physics homework. Difficult like don't know what. No idea how long it is gonna take me to finish it. Haiz. Such a pathetic school life. Oh well. ^^ Enough of my moaning. I just realised I typed a lot. Haha. Forgive me if I have any typo errors. Cya~

So stressed >.< Next thurs got extra piano lesson,because piano skills still not good enough for exam :'( Then next friday morning already piano exam liao -.- Then come back school....afternoon still got the SS thing. Dots. Hopefully the workshop will pull up my grades :D

Next saturday competition le. Can't wait for the windbreakers we are ordering to come in >.< -excited- Always see my bro wear,then jealous I don't own one. Heheheh. Now we are even! Hahaha. lol.

Yesterday's BC was extra extra STUPID! Omg man....we did kindergarden stuff,you know?? At first when he told us to do note-taking,I thought we would be doing some practising to take notes or something. But then he just went from link to link for like no reason?? Then he go ask us to draw picture of a house which he described before we started to draw -.- train our listening skills ah? Then we tell us to do a comic strip....with thumbprints. I swear it was such a lame lesson that I have no idea why my parents are spending thousands to go to such classes.

This is the only year I hate proficiency classes. I have no idea what I would do if my friends aren't there. Thank god for them. Muacks, Girls. Haha. And I realised that whatever Collin is teaching on that day,he doesn't continue it the next lesson -.- like for example,he ask us to do a presentation,then we went home to do it,and he just showed the slides the next lesson for like a minute and then he is off talkking about another thing. We were like HUH?? why did we spend that much time doing the slides,then? -.- So bekchek.

Alright,enough about that -mock voice- MR Collin. The finger pic we took for the comic strip is here,Jane ^^