I realised that I cry easily ._. which is not a good thing.,since I pride myself on being tough :l And even though I believe that I have promised myself not to trust my eldest bro anymore,I always end up trusting him again. Which is so pathetic... And so,after last night,I have really promised myself not to trust him ever again. I am going to do all I can to prevent him from getting any "secrets".

And I am starting to wonder if he hates me so much that he wants to see me fail my academic results. Afterall,it was because of him,that I chose Economics. Can I really bring myself to trust him again?

But people say that hating is much more tiring than loving. And I do understand that. But sometimes...Dislike just comes naturally and effortlessly.