Can't believe that just yesterday, I was laughing so happily. Yet now, I am crying my eyes out. Sigh. It's just a small issue but here I am, worried to sick over it.

Today, I went with him to Raffles Place. We bought some bread and he bought a soy bean drink. And he brought us to the nice place outside UOB place, where we sat together on a bench overlooking the Singapore River. I thought we would sit a bit further apart, but he seemed to want us to sit together... and so we did.

He talked about how life seems to be easier in Australia and wanting to migrate there. I ws listening so intently to him that my bread was just sitting there in my hand, attracting the greedy birds . Haha. I didn't even realise it was my bread that was attracting them until he said so. lol. Feeding birds. Haha!

I can't really remember what else we talked about. But I really laughed a lot. I haven't laughed like that in awhile. Maybe since I knew I would fail my As? Or maybe after the bicycle session in June? Sigh.

Whatever it is, I really enjoyed the one hour we had together. I think both of us were really reluctant to say goodbye when the time came for him to leave. I enjoyed the hug. I don't think I have ever hugged a guy after that one time in sec3. lol. God, why can't we be together? >.< I think I will really miss you...

This week, I had a crush. Maybe a bit of love. I haven't felt like this in awhile. But the thing is, he has a girlfriend already. I know I shouldn't, but I can't seem to help myself. I have always thought I would never go for people who are already attached...Ha. Maybe he is really just too easy to like and love.

I never planned to get close to him, since I knew the day for us to part is really soon. I thought I might as well just save myself the heartache by just distancing myself. Yet I was still drawn to him, like a bee to honey. Corny,huh. Haha. When we said goodbye today, I almost cried. And I did...on the train home. How embarrassing.

To be honest, I think that if he is unattached, I would have abandoned my long-held stance that guys should be the ones to initiate a relationship. Yes, I am that attracted to him. Sigh.

This will probably pass..in time. Not like this is the first time I had a crush anyway. Previously, it was my senior. Before that, it was someone like 10 years older. lol. It will pass. I know it will...I hope it will. God, I hate this heartache.

I wonder when I will might The One. Right now, I am really craving for someone who will love me. Someone who is not family. In short, a boyfriend. lol. I sound kind of desperate. I just feel like I want to start dating. Spend time with someone simply becuase I want to and he will be willing to spend time with me, because he wants to too. Doesn't sound difficult...but where do I find a guy who whom I want to do this with? Sigh. Fate, please send someone unattached my way next time.