This week, I had a crush. Maybe a bit of love. I haven't felt like this in awhile. But the thing is, he has a girlfriend already. I know I shouldn't, but I can't seem to help myself. I have always thought I would never go for people who are already attached...Ha. Maybe he is really just too easy to like and love.

I never planned to get close to him, since I knew the day for us to part is really soon. I thought I might as well just save myself the heartache by just distancing myself. Yet I was still drawn to him, like a bee to honey. Corny,huh. Haha. When we said goodbye today, I almost cried. And I did...on the train home. How embarrassing.

To be honest, I think that if he is unattached, I would have abandoned my long-held stance that guys should be the ones to initiate a relationship. Yes, I am that attracted to him. Sigh.

This will probably pass..in time. Not like this is the first time I had a crush anyway. Previously, it was my senior. Before that, it was someone like 10 years older. lol. It will pass. I know it will...I hope it will. God, I hate this heartache.

I wonder when I will might The One. Right now, I am really craving for someone who will love me. Someone who is not family. In short, a boyfriend. lol. I sound kind of desperate. I just feel like I want to start dating. Spend time with someone simply becuase I want to and he will be willing to spend time with me, because he wants to too. Doesn't sound difficult...but where do I find a guy who whom I want to do this with? Sigh. Fate, please send someone unattached my way next time.