Phew. Evac Day Camp ended yesterday. It was a very long and tiring day for everyone, I believe. Especially Xiaoli and Yuping ma'am ba. -pat- congrats all of those who passed :) Those who didn't,well, start studying for the next accred! Haha.

When I think of having to plan for another evac and fd bronze accred, I really sian diao. Tomorrow is the last day of 2009 le. My last day being a sec3 student. Next year being a graduating student, I really don't want and can't afford to spend too much time on hsrcy.. My dad has been nagging and nagging about me putting so much effort in this cca since the start of this year. lol. Yet somehow, I got involved in planning these 2 accreds and the sec1 orientation >.< -sigh- Oh well. Looking back now, I've really come a long way since I entered when I was sec1. I feel like I can do with another month of school holidays. So sad. So stressed too. Next year Olevel le lair!! omg...I still totally don't understand what my Chem and Phy textbooks are talking about. TT.TT Piano lessons have been so frequent this month ever since my dad "fired" Annie. lol. Today I finally understood Ms Chieng's way of teaching piano :D So happy. I was still thinking: wah,so many songs haven't pass siah (cause Annie's method was to tick when she thinks that I have mastered the piece). But today I realised Ms Chieng uses dates instead. lol. T.T I really don't want to start my stressful sec4 life...but then again...if I get over sec4,I will be as happy as a lark already...so...get it over and done with? LOL. But still, I must get it over with flying colours ^^ I CAN DO IT! yea right...

Hee. I just came back from Batam yesterday night. Had a wonderful time with my family over there. Will upload some of the pics we took another time. Heheh.

5 things I learnt from this trip:

1. Never take things for granted. I finally appreciate Singapore's cleanliness.
2. Women don't have an aim when they go shopping. They just buy whatever they like.
3. Massages in Batam are GOOD.
4. It's so hard to get a smile from some of the people there :(
5. People there just walk to where they want, without caring if they might knock into others.

I finally appreciate the art of photographing. I used to feel that taking photographs is a waste of time. Standing by the side while others have their fun taking photographs. In the past, I would think: what's the use of taking all these stuff? But now, I have a different perception. Photographs are a way of keeping memories. The next time you come to the same place, things might have changed. Sharing the pictures with the ones you treasure is an enjoyment itself. This time, I took plenty of pics with my bro :)

Though it was a short 2d1n trip, I think that it was rather fulfilling for me. I saw how their way of living from ours. The stuff that we take for granted, are things that they really need to improve their lifestyles.

But then again, it is in those kind of places that you can find a girl's dream guy, isn't it? Haha. You know, tough, tanned, strong, gives a strong sense of security, protective,loving,etc. Haha. Where to find a guy like that in Singapore? :P

15years old le. First time go for a massage. lol. So paiseh. Don't know what to do. Somemore they are older than me,so it's like errr.... Haha. They really have a lot of strength,man. When they massage, I can feel the pain T.T The ginger tea given after the massage is really..err,not to my taste. lol.

Didn't shop much. But bought a few things for myself: a pair of snickers, oil suckers, a diary :D:D:D Finally have a proper diary ^^ Keeping memories. Haha. Glad to be back in Singapore~!

Christmas Eve~ lol. Normally I would just brush past the word "christmas",but this year,it is kind of different though I have no idea why. But one thing to be sure of is that christmas this year ain't gonna be merry for me.

For one, I finally ended the 3year teacher-student relationship with Annie at 3pm today. lol. Today's lesson was utterly horrible. Jeez. Well yea,I didn't really prepare for it,since I knew that it was going to be the last lesson at all,etc. But awww man~ lol. We never said hi,never said bye. In fact, I somehow get the feeling that we wouldn't even speak to one another if not for the fact that we are connected by piano. In a way,I am glad that the journey with her is finally ending. Mann,it has already been 3 years~

Well for second, I am having piano lesson tmrw night with Ms Chiend,my new piano teacher. T.T Now that's just plain sad or what. But she christmas still need to work, a bit sad for her. lol. I never have plans on Christmas. I swear. Just slouch around like a couch potato with family. Ha. Ha.

I am going overseas this weekend~ Finally have a chance to go overseas with family. At long last. TWO LONG YEARS. I haven't gone overseas with family. Before those 2 years,sometimes my one or two of my bro wouldn't be able to join us because of studies or work. So yea. Pretty happy.

The rain is making me lethargic. Haha. Merry Christmas!

Haha. Heard that Julienne was awarded the lanyard in RCYC'09. Haha. Congrats! ^^ Hope the rest had had fun too! :)

Well, after these few days, I have finally figured things out.

Well,I went to KKH for my checkup yesterday. Saw a small hunk there. Woohoo~ So cool. Had a couple of eye contacts, but didn't talk T.T Oh well. The doc said I should be fine. Yay... The doctors and nurses there are really very nice. Even though they are busy, they would still ensure that you're comfortable and enquire after your well being. But well,I still don't like hospitals. They give me a creepy feeling. Especially those machines...

I mentioned before that I was really happy about something in one of my previous posts,right? Well, I guess I can reveal it now, since it has already been confirmed. I shall be having a new piano teacher~ I have had 2 lessons with her so far, and I feel that she's really much better than my first piano teacher,Annie. I am currently handling both of them now, ending next week with Annie. Ahhh~ I do hope so that this shall be a new beginning.

I have been reading manga these few weeks and playing maple every now and then.

Got pretty upset just now with my parents. They just got me really agitated with their nagging me to practice piano. Grrrr... They just don't understand this part of me,huh. -shrugs- Forget it. This is saddening and troubling.

Had a really busy week. Left only 2 more weeks till school reopens. Urgh. I haven't finished my holiday homework T.T!!

I am going crazy. All of a sudden,so many thing to do... -sigh- Just endure tomorrow,Yu Lin,and all will turn out fine. Happy or sad ending,I don't know. But at least I know that it will be an end for everything. Temporarily anyway. Just to buy me some time for a couple of days. Then the horror starts all over again.

I don't know if it's a sweet dream or a nightmare. Is history repeating itself? Or is it a new beginning? Oh,I do so hope so it's a new beginning. I hope for it so much. I cannot endure going through everything again. This weight on my shoulders...can it finally be taken away? Have I finally ceased being Atlas (an enormous exaggeration)?

Tomorrow shall be the day of reckoning...

Jeez. Piano lesson today was scary. I was trembling as I played. Gosh. Fearing yet knowing that she won't pass me. How sad. -sigh- 2more lessons to go!! Jiayou!!

Oh yeah. Pics taken during the Chem AEM is on Elysia's blog :D I lazy to go steal and post here. Hee. Anyway the pics are ugle. Me anyway. T.T

Sian. Parents are pressuring me to start practicing my piano. -sigh- piano ah,piano. Why must you do this to me? T.T

I haven't been here for some time again,huh. Hee. Had Chem AEM at SP for the past week. Pretty fun and engaging. Recommend all to try if given the chance :D We learnt some stuff about drugs,DNA,analytical techniques,poisons,etc. Hee. Enjoyed the lessons and practicals a lot. Even though I have to wake up very early each morning T.T So ended up pretty tired at the end of each day. lol.

So happy that the presentations went happily :D I would say it was the best presentation I ever did.

Eeeekk,so tired. Want to sleep already. Today was the last day of the AEM. Haha. Thought I wouldn't receive any Edusave this year. Surprisingly,I did. Some very very small stuff.

Happy Belated Birthday,Caocao!

Bon voyage,Zhi Yuan~

oh my god. I am so tired T.T my feet hurts like hell too. Damn the new shoes. Today was the start of Chem AEM at SP. Well,the lecturer was fun and so the lesson was quite good,even though the duration of the lesson is long. Everywhere you go,it's like air-conditioned. So cool la!! lol. The classrooms,the laboratories and of course,the 5-storey library. Was it 5 storey? or was it 4? Oh whatever. It's huge. lol.

The practical lesson was cool! even though the results my group got wasn't exactly perfect,but well,it was not bad already :D After that,me and Nut took the mrt to TPY and went to search for caocao's bdae present:) Had a hard time looking for her present. And that was the reason why my feet hurt too. Haha. But well,it's for my gugu after all ^^

Me and Nut saw a bag that we both loved. But was too expensive for us to afford T.T -sobs- Then the 2 tired us went back home. I am so tired that I wanna just go sleep rigth now. Zzzzzz~

OH MY GOSH,OH MY GOSH!!! I am so psyched!! I am not gonna say anything yet,since things are still pretty much unconfirmed,but yes! One more troubling matter on it's way to heaven. HEE.

To the certain someone whose name starts with an E:
I feel safe typing this message for you here because I know you will never read it. You don't even know this place's url,for god's sake. You were never interested in learning more about others,were you? I never realised that I had added you in friendster. When I learnt about it recently,I got a shock looking through your photos. Sheesh. Get a life? Oops. That was mean.

But anyway,that wasn't the point. The point is that I am sorry I broke my promise. I didn't have the courage to see you. I even forgot your dog's name -.- I think I made the right decision. In your case,anyway. Well,I have said all I wanted. Though I know the chances of you reading this message is very very slim,but there's a small part of me that wants you to read this. May you have a happy future,my dear. All the best:)

I am going crazy soon >..< I am having AEM starting from this friday,and I won't have time to have piano lesson during those days. Much to my regret,she said very very unhappily,"then never mind lor. we just put it on this sat. I rush back home only mah." Then I was like...arghhhhh!! I really can't make it!! Jeez. I just want things to be normal,peaceful. When did the relationship with her become so tense?? AGRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

:(

What in the world am I going to do now??