Prince William got married yesterday. Somehow,I have always associated the title "Prince William" with Prince Charming. So it felt like I lost something within me asI watched him getting married with a really beautiful Kate. Perhaps it's because I have to look for someone else to be Prince Charming? -sigh- I realised that I haven't entertained any romantic thoughts since I started my JC life. There is just no time for such fanciful daydreams anymore. -sigh- And once again,I am left friendless. Ah cao and ann have nut. Ely has JY. Peifoong,lingyan and pearlyn is another group. What about me? ME and my books. Hahaha. Oh well. I guess it's really my fault for not continuing these friendship. It seems rather sad now that I think about it. But oh well. I can't really do anything either but to make the best of what I have now. Life still has to go on,right? :)

-bangs head against wall- LIFE SUCKS. BIG TIME. KILL ME. TYVM.

Is this bitter feeling called jealousy? That someone else out there is better than me and more suited to be with him? I can't stand this. The thought that I have lost to a junior feels ridiculous. I hate this.

I have never been good at cheering people up,motivating or inspiring. But never have I wished for such an ability like now. To cheer him up. To help open his mind to more ideas. To aid him. The simple pleasure of seeing him smile is good enough for me...Even if he only ends up hurting me.

Oh my god. This is horrible. I dreamt that my CT was my stepfather. God. This is HORRIBLE.

Awwww. Went back HS to take my Olevel cert and testimonial. Felt like the last 4 years is really over. Haha,I know I am lag. Reality usually doesn't hit me until I know what I have been taking for granted. And YES! I finally got to meet up with some my batchmates again. After so long too T.T Actually it has been only 3months,but it feels really really long. So the few of us were like sitting around,trying to catch up on what we missed in each other's lives. We wanted to go find the teachers to complain (yes,complain) but they weren't around. Off to MOE excel fest. Oh well. Best of all,I got to see my fav gugu again~ Hahaha. Seriously,I miss her so much. When I saw her yesterday,I was like "waa,when did she get so beautiful?" and I am not kidding. Her complexion has become so much better and I can sense that she has the determination to work hard now,something that I couldn't feel back in secondary school. I guess JC life really agrees with her. Hahaha. But omg,she is so beautiful now! Hahaha. Maybe it has got to do with the rigorous PE she does. Poor girl. And I realised that the top scorer in my school didn't even bother going to VJ or NJ or some elite school. Instead he went to AJ =.=" wth. But I have to say that I was not surprised when he joined the drama club,but did wonder why he didn't join debate. His pro-ness in English should bring him some awards. Hahaha. Oh well,it's his choice :) And I better start on my PI before I get killed. Hahaha. And I am gonna look at some dates when all of us can get together again!! XDD