Friday, March 25, 2011
Haha. At last something to brighten up my month. I think the NCOs for hsrcy stepped down today and it seems like everyone was crying at some point or another. It feels really nice to see them all bonded together even though it doesn't really concern me. I didn't even go down to support their FAC. How sad was that? Oh well. I think they will understand if they see my result slip,so yea. Miss my batchmates more than ever. Most of them anyway :P Hopefully the sec4s can have a wonderful year before preparing for the ultimate of all challenges :) at least it seemed that way to me back then la. lol. Alright,back to muggingggggg.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Aww man. I suddenly miss the days I spent at my old house. With the sun setting,my mom or maid cooking dinner and me playing downstairs or with my bro. And at that time,it wasn't hdb...since there were only 5 levels. lol. Kind of like kampong area. Haha. Then at 6pm,my dad would come home and the whole family would sit at the table for dinner. AWWWW. The good old days. -SIGH-
Saturday, March 12, 2011
I think my explanation skills are getting from bad to worse. When people ask me "why",I have to think for a very long while. Most of the time it's just that I don't want to tell the whole truth but neither do I want to lie. So there is like this awkward silence when my friends wait for me to answer while I think. LOL. And yea,this just happens with those in SAJC,since they don't know me well :D
Ahhh. I just got to know that Ann quitted jc life already. I have to admit that I am rather disappointed. During our sec4 days,we used to talk about going to the JCs of our choice,subjects we were going to take,life we were going to lead. Yea...so when I got to know that she quit the race because she can't cope with the mugging lifestyle,I was rather shocked. But oh well...I just hope that this is the right choice for her.
Why are my history teachers so cute?!! LOL. In secondary school,Mr Chin was always there with his .... I don't know. I just find that his way of talking always makes me smile. And now,this Mr Wee is equally .... with his um chio. Oh well,whatever it is,I just hope that this Mr Wee is as helpful as Mr Chin was. 'Cause my history really sucks right now. I am FAILING. All my subjects,actually. Yes,I know I suck. -SIGH-
I find that I am really unsure of what has truly happened. Has it all been wishful thinking on my part? If that is so,then it is really devastating. And what was with all that talk about my future? Are you really concerned about it? I mean,yea you should be,but until what extent? Why should I be so confused over your actions and speech? Because after what I have discovered about you,I realised that I don't know you at all. Argh. I don't want to think about it anymore. It's just going to make me more depressed.
When has family become so important to me? Every time they leave me to go somewhere else,there is this horrible feeling that I really don't like. It feels too empty,too strange,too cold. I hate it. Why had I ever thought that I would want to live alone,separate from them? NO! I won't be able to survive. At the very least,I need someone else with me. And if it's just a friend,I will probably be homesick most of the time. lol. Guess I am not the hostel type after all. Hahaha.
Ahhh. I just got to know that Ann quitted jc life already. I have to admit that I am rather disappointed. During our sec4 days,we used to talk about going to the JCs of our choice,subjects we were going to take,life we were going to lead. Yea...so when I got to know that she quit the race because she can't cope with the mugging lifestyle,I was rather shocked. But oh well...I just hope that this is the right choice for her.
Why are my history teachers so cute?!! LOL. In secondary school,Mr Chin was always there with his .... I don't know. I just find that his way of talking always makes me smile. And now,this Mr Wee is equally .... with his um chio. Oh well,whatever it is,I just hope that this Mr Wee is as helpful as Mr Chin was. 'Cause my history really sucks right now. I am FAILING. All my subjects,actually. Yes,I know I suck. -SIGH-
I find that I am really unsure of what has truly happened. Has it all been wishful thinking on my part? If that is so,then it is really devastating. And what was with all that talk about my future? Are you really concerned about it? I mean,yea you should be,but until what extent? Why should I be so confused over your actions and speech? Because after what I have discovered about you,I realised that I don't know you at all. Argh. I don't want to think about it anymore. It's just going to make me more depressed.
When has family become so important to me? Every time they leave me to go somewhere else,there is this horrible feeling that I really don't like. It feels too empty,too strange,too cold. I hate it. Why had I ever thought that I would want to live alone,separate from them? NO! I won't be able to survive. At the very least,I need someone else with me. And if it's just a friend,I will probably be homesick most of the time. lol. Guess I am not the hostel type after all. Hahaha.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Today,I learnt that I shouldn't watch those sad movies with people crying in every other scene when I am feeling down. It just makes the waterworks start.
Every moment I have to myself,I find myself wondering whether I would really be able to cope with all these at the end of the day. Life is no longer what it used to be--laughing,joking around and just simply waiting for time to pass. Instead,the present requires us to interpret,analyse and read things with a more critical view. I really don't like that. Since secondary school,I realised that I dislike having to look for hidden intentions in people's actions,speech,thoughts. Why can't we just take things by their face value? Maybe I am just too lazy to read things deeper. Or perhaps I simply prefer to have a positive feeling about everything. Haha. I guess taking H2 History isn't a right step then. One of the reasons I like about the subject is that it allowed me to view how people truly thought at that point of time though. Makes all this contradictory,doesn't it?
I don't know. I usually take the train home alone,so I spend the time reflecting. Yet more often than not,I find myself thinking that since I made the choice,isn't it up to me to make it right? Isn't there the saying that it is up to us to live our lives happily? Yea. JY used to say that it's all about our mentality. Not so long ago,I would have simply laughed at that word. Now I am not so sure. Even though I am having so much problems with schoolwork,it's up to me to make it all work out at the end,right? Yea. Things aren't as terrible as it looked before I started on this post. Haha.
But really. How many times have I had this conversation with myself already? And how often has it really worked? I don't know. All I am more worried about is why I can't seem to understand the words "evaluate,analyse,synthesise,asses". Once upon a time,I would simply have skipped over these words had they appeared in a passage. But do I have a choice anymore?
Haha. Enough emoing. Right now,I am more concerned about how I am going to spend my weekend at home,ALL ALONE. Argh.
Every moment I have to myself,I find myself wondering whether I would really be able to cope with all these at the end of the day. Life is no longer what it used to be--laughing,joking around and just simply waiting for time to pass. Instead,the present requires us to interpret,analyse and read things with a more critical view. I really don't like that. Since secondary school,I realised that I dislike having to look for hidden intentions in people's actions,speech,thoughts. Why can't we just take things by their face value? Maybe I am just too lazy to read things deeper. Or perhaps I simply prefer to have a positive feeling about everything. Haha. I guess taking H2 History isn't a right step then. One of the reasons I like about the subject is that it allowed me to view how people truly thought at that point of time though. Makes all this contradictory,doesn't it?
I don't know. I usually take the train home alone,so I spend the time reflecting. Yet more often than not,I find myself thinking that since I made the choice,isn't it up to me to make it right? Isn't there the saying that it is up to us to live our lives happily? Yea. JY used to say that it's all about our mentality. Not so long ago,I would have simply laughed at that word. Now I am not so sure. Even though I am having so much problems with schoolwork,it's up to me to make it all work out at the end,right? Yea. Things aren't as terrible as it looked before I started on this post. Haha.
But really. How many times have I had this conversation with myself already? And how often has it really worked? I don't know. All I am more worried about is why I can't seem to understand the words "evaluate,analyse,synthesise,asses". Once upon a time,I would simply have skipped over these words had they appeared in a passage. But do I have a choice anymore?
Haha. Enough emoing. Right now,I am more concerned about how I am going to spend my weekend at home,ALL ALONE. Argh.
Friday, March 4, 2011
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