Today,I learnt that I shouldn't watch those sad movies with people crying in every other scene when I am feeling down. It just makes the waterworks start.

Every moment I have to myself,I find myself wondering whether I would really be able to cope with all these at the end of the day. Life is no longer what it used to be--laughing,joking around and just simply waiting for time to pass. Instead,the present requires us to interpret,analyse and read things with a more critical view. I really don't like that. Since secondary school,I realised that I dislike having to look for hidden intentions in people's actions,speech,thoughts. Why can't we just take things by their face value? Maybe I am just too lazy to read things deeper. Or perhaps I simply prefer to have a positive feeling about everything. Haha. I guess taking H2 History isn't a right step then. One of the reasons I like about the subject is that it allowed me to view how people truly thought at that point of time though. Makes all this contradictory,doesn't it?

I don't know. I usually take the train home alone,so I spend the time reflecting. Yet more often than not,I find myself thinking that since I made the choice,isn't it up to me to make it right? Isn't there the saying that it is up to us to live our lives happily? Yea. JY used to say that it's all about our mentality. Not so long ago,I would have simply laughed at that word. Now I am not so sure. Even though I am having so much problems with schoolwork,it's up to me to make it all work out at the end,right? Yea. Things aren't as terrible as it looked before I started on this post. Haha.

But really. How many times have I had this conversation with myself already? And how often has it really worked? I don't know. All I am more worried about is why I can't seem to understand the words "evaluate,analyse,synthesise,asses". Once upon a time,I would simply have skipped over these words had they appeared in a passage. But do I have a choice anymore?

Haha. Enough emoing. Right now,I am more concerned about how I am going to spend my weekend at home,ALL ALONE. Argh.