It has been a horrible day. Would it be too upsetting for my family if I just locked myself in my room and cry my heart out? I failed one darn section of my chemistry. -screams- I feel so horrible horrible horrible!! And I thought I had already mastered chem. God, how wrong could I have been?? -wanting to just hide myself under the covers and cry-

Today I had lunch with ann. She let me realised that not everyone is who they appear to be. Sometimes, we really have to look real close to find out who they really are like. For example, I never thought that people whom I have befriended were not as nice as I had thought them to be while people whom I had neglected were actually pretty nice. I guess I really suck at reading people. Like I said before,I don't like mind games. It is not only irritating to take the time to decipher those words but also heartwrenching when I find out who and what they meant.

Urghhh,I feel too upset to continue. I must be too stressed. Or I am getting depression.

I am the happiest girl on Earth. I still can't believe I managed an A1 for History. It's like making history IN history. Okay,that sounds weird. LOL. My English has seriously deproved since I stopped going to BC. Missing the other girls so much. Oh well~ Hopefully I can go back next year :D Well,anyway,I was really afraid I wouldn't do well for History,especially since I didn't memorise the case studies for Cold War. Weiliang didn't make things easier either. LOL. He called me up on Friday to ask me which chapters were I gonna study for History and after much discussion,we finally decided. He always needs someone to study the same stuff with him,if not he wouldn't feel secure. lol. On Sat, he called me up at least 3 times to ask me how I was studying. On sunday,he called and asked "eh,want to change chapters or not ah? not a lot of people studying Cold War leh". I was like "wtf. I study already,not tell me study something else." and of course,being the stubborn me,I went along with my inital decision and he eventually said okay~ Hahaha. Jeez,he would probably throw a fit if he ever saw this post. :P -cough- ANYWAY,as expected,only the 2 of us did Cold War and when we saw the exam paper, we were like " WTH" Reason: we both agreed not to study Korean War. LOL! Oh my~ thinking back,I can't help but laugh at the way we studied. Hahahaha. Well,I spent only 2 days on this subject so I couldn't exactly study ALL in exact detail :P Then today,when Weiliang asked about the results for those who did that chapter,Mr Chin was like "Hmmmm. Err,unfortunately...those who did that...didn't do very well" Oh my god. The fear I felt seriously cannot be expressed in words. While waiting to get my exam script,I was literally trembling and when he read out my marks I almost cried with relief. I WAS SO DARN HAPPY. Best Friend and I were like hugging each other,unable to believe the marks we had. Well,most scored quite high,but it was a first for us to score an A1 for History. When I told my dad the news,he asked me to repeat it three times before he was sure he heard me right. LOL. Isn't it amazing how a few more marks can make so many others happy? Si Mr Chin,cheat my feelings. Hahahaha.

Both my math were A1s,which was expected,both from myself and others. -constantly reminding myself not to get complacent- so many careless mistakes made,or else I could have scored 90+ -pouts- Oh well. I am happy :) Perhaps I could have done better for Physics though. I managed to scrap by with a B4 :P I am content,but B3 will be my goal,hopefully achieved during Os. Hahaha.

I haven't received all of my results yet,but I more or less can estimate my grades. I am hoping for an A2 for english and chinese. Darn,but I weren't the highest for both subjects. Okay,Jeremy and I had the same scores,but the marks for situational writing will determine the top scorer. :P I was the second for Chinese only,though. Hmph. Oh well,I didn't study for it at all. LOL. Can't complain. Hahaha. Chem MCQ was quite well done. 36/40 :D scolded by weiliang. LOL. Reason: we had the highest scores and he wanted to be the only one. LOL. Not complaining,mind you. It's just his character,so it's better to view it in a positive way :) Hoping for an A2 for Chem and SS :P I just need 17/25 for my SS essay to guarantee me an A1 for combined humans. Come on,Mr Chin! Make my week and give me the first A1 for CH in my life. Hahaha.

Then today,my dad gave me a piece of news that I couldn't believe when he first told me. Let's just say...it's a secret until Os are over! Hahaha. Alright,got to go hurry if I want to sleep with big bro tonight. The other bro is MIA with his gf T.T Abandoned once again. Sad~ Oh well. Goodnight~! Smile and be happy!

Weee~ Back from bintan :D A beautiful yet expensive place. Everything there is in Singapore currency and a little small keychain costs 5 bucks... The scenery there is really beautiful though. A great place for water sports too :) A lot of angmohs alsooo~~ Heheh. sad,but all married one T.T I saw a little baby with my favourite crystal blue eyes. Oh my god. I fell in love with his eyes instantly. I thought that I had gotten over my infatuation with this,but I guess I hadn't after all T.T

Staying in a resort beside the sea is a really wonderful experience. Lying on the bed,listening to the waves crashing into the rocks and enjoying the cool breeze is...well,amazing. I don't think I want to go there again,but some day,I would like to go somewhere similiar,in a western country this time :D got more angmohs. LOL!

Oh my god. I am getting so many cuts and bruises. Either I am really careless when I'm studying or things just bang into me -.- Seriously. This morning, I was so tired (I got up really early) that I was walking with my eyes closed. Guess what? I banged into a wall =.= In school too. How embarrassing T.T Thank god there weren't many people in school at that time. Urgh. My panda eyes are getting darker and darker... -sigh- HOW MANY MORE DAYS TO GO??? :'(

3more,actually :D I have managed to get by the last 16years and 2months. What's another THREE MORE DAYS,RIGHT??? TT.TT I am seriously hanging onto sanity by a thread. Studying gives me such a terrible feeling. Urgh.

Lol. I am so darn tired,yet still awake at 11.30pm =.= -waiting for bro to come back-

The paste few prelims papers were quite okay,except for English and Physics T.T well,physics is expected,but english... -sobs- After the third day of the exams,I already felt like dying -.- Being a serious mugger is hard work. Prelims continuing after the holidays...Got to chiong my revision within one week!! God,please give me the strength and motivation :)

There's still 2 more months till the Olevels end ._. Yes,I am already counting when they are ending. LOL. It's just 2 months. I am sure I can endure it after the last 3 years!! -falls back to bed and sleep- :P It's so tiring. Hahaha. Oh well. It's too early to plan for entertainment after Os,best to just focus on the Os itself. Hahaha.

Well,right now,there isn't much in my life besides study,study and more study ._. sad life,I know,but the situation calls for it. Got to get 10 points!!! lol. Well,recently met one of ann's friend,yk,for short. lol. The first thing I noticed when I saw him was that his nose is really long. :D so cute. LOL. Don't worry,I won't steal ann's guy from her. Muahahaha. XP

Today I ate lunch with the two of them and one of yk's friend and I was like ._. I really hate eating in front of people I don't know. lol. Even with people I am familiar and comfortable with, I won't eat a lot either -.- Stupid,I know,it's all in the mind. Anyway,I ended up having half a cup of coke for lunch. LOL. Pro,right? Hahaha. Anyway I don't even eat lunch anymore during school days. It's just too much of a bother :P I can totally hear the "I-told-you-so" when I start to have gastric. lol.

Jeez,is my bro coming back or not T.T ... YES! He's back! WOOHOO~alright,i'm offff~~~