Okay,I give up. I just tried setting the options for this blog to only certain people,but then I think i failed. LOL. Never mind. Let's just say that this is gonna be the last post you will ever see from me :D though maybe I will just write in my diary...hmmm...we shall see.
This week was really busy for me. So many things to do,so little time!! Need to prepare my full u and 3tests with such a limited revising time...arghh. I think I did quite okay for History and Chinese tests,though I didn't have time to finish the former T.T amath test was GG. Arghhh!! Too complacent le!! Die la. This whole week I totally no time to practise my piano pieces. Tmrw sure die. T.T
So today had POP...still remember pinning up all those badges yesterday. Iron and pin within an hour is already an accomplishment,okay. Haha. But I still get nausea and headaches after it -.- My boots CMI already. After World Red Cross day,I am so gonna throw them away. lol. Seriously cannot wear anymore. Unpresentable. LOL. Got my new ranks today. Finally higher rank than my eldest bro. Muahahahaha! LOL. With my new rank on,my uniform looks grey -.-
Well,nothing much to say about it le la. Said all I wanted after my last training. Now not much feelings le. But well,I still feel strongly towards Red Cross la. lol. Whatever that meant.
I have eyebags le!! OMG!!! I am so gonna catch up with my sleep after SA1. Urgh. -bangs head against wall- I. Am. So. Tired. That's all I have to say ^.^
Friday, April 16, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Have been really busy recently. Won't be coming online so often anymore. Well,not that I am not using the com,but ... just no reason to go online :)
I have discovered that there is a huge difference between being saying that you're tired and the feeling of wanting to just close your eyes and sleep no matter what position you are in. This is still not the worst. The worst is when you are really swaying with tiredness,closing your eyes at every single opportunity as though there is a heavy lead at your eyelids. Gee...Though conditions are still not at the extreme,but it's second bad. -sigh-
Lacking of time to study le...arghh!! Aim this time round is say,5A1s. Hoping against hope,racing against time,all for the sake of getting my desired results. But in the process,I am losing what I have built up over the years. Such things are gone once lost. But even if I kept them by my side,they will still be gone as time goes by. Standing in a third person view,which would you choose? Good results that will stay with you forever or this other "thing" that fades as times passes?
Dad has been right all along. After 2 years,I finally agree with him. Ha. How ironic. It seems like I really don't have much of a choice after all. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....I think I really need a breather. Anyone up for a round of badminton? :)
I have discovered that there is a huge difference between being saying that you're tired and the feeling of wanting to just close your eyes and sleep no matter what position you are in. This is still not the worst. The worst is when you are really swaying with tiredness,closing your eyes at every single opportunity as though there is a heavy lead at your eyelids. Gee...Though conditions are still not at the extreme,but it's second bad. -sigh-
Lacking of time to study le...arghh!! Aim this time round is say,5A1s. Hoping against hope,racing against time,all for the sake of getting my desired results. But in the process,I am losing what I have built up over the years. Such things are gone once lost. But even if I kept them by my side,they will still be gone as time goes by. Standing in a third person view,which would you choose? Good results that will stay with you forever or this other "thing" that fades as times passes?
Dad has been right all along. After 2 years,I finally agree with him. Ha. How ironic. It seems like I really don't have much of a choice after all. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....I think I really need a breather. Anyone up for a round of badminton? :)
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Wow. So cool! I went jogging yesterday evening with my bro (a pretty rare event) at some err...fruit park near my house's sports complex. First time I actually went there even though I live here. LOL. Right,the scenery was really very beautiful. Amazingly,I managed to jog 5rounds :D Though my ankle kind of hurt...it's always like this when I am running. Urgh. Well,that's all ba. lol. Training myself to run faster. Heh.
Friday, April 2, 2010
lol. I remembered I had something to say here just now but when the browser finally finished loading,I forgot what I had wanted to type initially -.- Oh well,never mind. Let's talk about something else then. Hmmm....okay,how about my new-found neighbour? LOL.
I have this neighbour who lives 3 floors above me. First noticed him in err...primary 6,I think. I remember it was on the day we received our PSLE scores. Took the same lift up,but can't remember which primary school he is from. Doesn't matter anw. lol. Then after that,met him a few times over the years in the morning when we take the lift down. I only know he's from Greedale Sec,same age as me,the opposite gender,and nothing else. LOL. Isn't it amazing? We live in the same block but I have absolutely no idea what is his name. Hahaha -.- I do know my neighbours' (the ones staying next door) names though. But erm...I have err...no idea which name goes to which person :P I don't really talk to my neighbours. Heh. Only greet them if I meet them. I try to avoid them as much as possible. Cause err...I don't have any thing to say to them. LOL.
I don't remember any girls in secondary school in my block,but then again,I don't go looking for people. I only take note when I see them. Boys and girls alike. My block does have a lot of babies. LOL. Seriously. All so cute :D
So last tuesday after a particularly draining Physics lesson,I took 156 to go home. Almost fell into someone. Omg. So paiseh. Somemore that person is a guy =.=" -mortified- I don't even want to think about it. When I step out of a bus,I take note of the people around me,and that day wasn't any different. But let me just filter out the main person. lol. It was someone from Peicai. A school where my brother had a hideous time. But well,nothing interesting there and I just walked the usual route home. Somehow,though we took different routes,we ended up one in front of the other,at the pavement beside Nanchiau peimary. lol. Still nothing interesting there. It was gonna rain,so I walked a bit faster. And I err, overtook him. LOL. Then lalalla,jay-walked across the street and ended up at the opposite block. And then I noticed he was walking behind me.
Okay,let me describe the area in my house a bit. A whole column of buildings on my left and right,leaving a road for cars in between. Right,so as usual,I walked on the roadside (more airy) heading home. Then that guy wasn't behind me anymore and I naturally assumed he was heading another way. So lalala,and guess what? We met again. LOL. He reappeared in front of me(he must have been walking really fast) just before I reached my house's block and disappeared into another block. Then I realised he's staying in the opposite block. LOL. Isn't it interesting how fate has our lives planned out? Haha. I have never even seen the guy before last tuesday. -shakes head in amusement-
Perhaps at this point of time,my life seems to be full of some unknown guys,but actually,no. lol. I just haven't met any new girls. Nothing much to talk about about the old clique,except ah cao fell down T.T During her 2.4. -sigh- Hope she recovers fast. My beloved gugu~
Ohoh! I think I remembered what I wanted to say at the start. It was regarding yesterday,in BC. Right,so I was the first to reach (among the BC clique) and was feeling kind of anxious,paranoid of going in alone,cause I knew there was going to be a lot of new peeps whom I have no desire to be friends with (I have a strange aversion to making new friends). So I sat outside the classroom,even though I knew I was going to be late waiting for one of my friends to reach the place. lol. So I waited there. And guess what? I saw Nick!! :D and collin =.= LOL. Gosh,I haven't seen Nick in such a long time,man. Missed his blonde hair and a bit high pitch voice. Hahhaha. I still remember that he was the first teacher to actually compliment my work :) Which reminds me...Andrew T.T Damn him. Went to get married and migrated =.= He was the first teacher to email me a long list of ways to help improve my English. LOL. I remember he got sunburnt a lot too.
Anw,back to Nick. So I said Hi but I am afraid my voice came out pretty strangled T.T! My nerves were frayed from the anxiety of going into the classroom. He looked pretty busy. lol. All the teachers there are really very cool (except for -ahem- one or two). So sad that I am gonna end my days there soon. -sigh- From P3 till now. Phew. But as I said,these few recent years haven't been easy to fit in. All those people with such high standard of English...I feel so...useless. Something along those lines. Just can't find the correct word now.
Oh,and I just saw some show regarding singing and then I thought of my piano. LOL. THEN I thought of my HK trip with HSRCY. And I felt so embarrased. Ekkkk!! I have no idea how I got the courage to sing in front of the damn whole unit. Urghh. I have goosebumps just thinking about it. Yet another weakness of mine. Singing =.= -SIGH-
I have this neighbour who lives 3 floors above me. First noticed him in err...primary 6,I think. I remember it was on the day we received our PSLE scores. Took the same lift up,but can't remember which primary school he is from. Doesn't matter anw. lol. Then after that,met him a few times over the years in the morning when we take the lift down. I only know he's from Greedale Sec,same age as me,the opposite gender,and nothing else. LOL. Isn't it amazing? We live in the same block but I have absolutely no idea what is his name. Hahaha -.- I do know my neighbours' (the ones staying next door) names though. But erm...I have err...no idea which name goes to which person :P I don't really talk to my neighbours. Heh. Only greet them if I meet them. I try to avoid them as much as possible. Cause err...I don't have any thing to say to them. LOL.
I don't remember any girls in secondary school in my block,but then again,I don't go looking for people. I only take note when I see them. Boys and girls alike. My block does have a lot of babies. LOL. Seriously. All so cute :D
So last tuesday after a particularly draining Physics lesson,I took 156 to go home. Almost fell into someone. Omg. So paiseh. Somemore that person is a guy =.=" -mortified- I don't even want to think about it. When I step out of a bus,I take note of the people around me,and that day wasn't any different. But let me just filter out the main person. lol. It was someone from Peicai. A school where my brother had a hideous time. But well,nothing interesting there and I just walked the usual route home. Somehow,though we took different routes,we ended up one in front of the other,at the pavement beside Nanchiau peimary. lol. Still nothing interesting there. It was gonna rain,so I walked a bit faster. And I err, overtook him. LOL. Then lalalla,jay-walked across the street and ended up at the opposite block. And then I noticed he was walking behind me.
Okay,let me describe the area in my house a bit. A whole column of buildings on my left and right,leaving a road for cars in between. Right,so as usual,I walked on the roadside (more airy) heading home. Then that guy wasn't behind me anymore and I naturally assumed he was heading another way. So lalala,and guess what? We met again. LOL. He reappeared in front of me(he must have been walking really fast) just before I reached my house's block and disappeared into another block. Then I realised he's staying in the opposite block. LOL. Isn't it interesting how fate has our lives planned out? Haha. I have never even seen the guy before last tuesday. -shakes head in amusement-
Perhaps at this point of time,my life seems to be full of some unknown guys,but actually,no. lol. I just haven't met any new girls. Nothing much to talk about about the old clique,except ah cao fell down T.T During her 2.4. -sigh- Hope she recovers fast. My beloved gugu~
Ohoh! I think I remembered what I wanted to say at the start. It was regarding yesterday,in BC. Right,so I was the first to reach (among the BC clique) and was feeling kind of anxious,paranoid of going in alone,cause I knew there was going to be a lot of new peeps whom I have no desire to be friends with (I have a strange aversion to making new friends). So I sat outside the classroom,even though I knew I was going to be late waiting for one of my friends to reach the place. lol. So I waited there. And guess what? I saw Nick!! :D and collin =.= LOL. Gosh,I haven't seen Nick in such a long time,man. Missed his blonde hair and a bit high pitch voice. Hahhaha. I still remember that he was the first teacher to actually compliment my work :) Which reminds me...Andrew T.T Damn him. Went to get married and migrated =.= He was the first teacher to email me a long list of ways to help improve my English. LOL. I remember he got sunburnt a lot too.
Anw,back to Nick. So I said Hi but I am afraid my voice came out pretty strangled T.T! My nerves were frayed from the anxiety of going into the classroom. He looked pretty busy. lol. All the teachers there are really very cool (except for -ahem- one or two). So sad that I am gonna end my days there soon. -sigh- From P3 till now. Phew. But as I said,these few recent years haven't been easy to fit in. All those people with such high standard of English...I feel so...useless. Something along those lines. Just can't find the correct word now.
Oh,and I just saw some show regarding singing and then I thought of my piano. LOL. THEN I thought of my HK trip with HSRCY. And I felt so embarrased. Ekkkk!! I have no idea how I got the courage to sing in front of the damn whole unit. Urghh. I have goosebumps just thinking about it. Yet another weakness of mine. Singing =.= -SIGH-
Thursday, April 1, 2010
What an exciting day. lol. I went to BC today to makeup for tmrw's lesson. Today's class had a total of 27 peeps. Cool! lol. Normally a class only has 18 people. LOL. See the diff? Haha. Would have liked to sit with the usual clique,but due to land constrains,we were separated T.T
I ended up with a group of guys. At first I was kind of apprehensive,cause all look so...erm...scary. LOL. But after awhile,I found that they were actually really very nice people. I wanted to add the guy sitting next to me in facebook so I went to ask for his real name (In BC,we are called by names we want to be called). So far so good,right? Guess what? By the time I went down to the first floor,I had already forgotten his name. -shrieks!!- I have such a bad memory... Nvm...there are other sources I can find out from. Worse come to worse,don't add lor. lol. But it would be nice if I could :D I mean, making a new friend is better than having a new enemy,right? :P
All in all,it has been a great day. It has been so long since I regarded BC lessons as fun. It's just so hard to fit in...urgh. Let's just talk about something else.
I have actually been meaning to type this out for a while,but have never gotten around to it. Here it is: Around 6months ago,Eddie once asked me why I was so afraid of confronting my emotions. At that time,I thought "wth was he saying??" But a few days ago,I realised that what he said was true. I am afraid of digging too deep in my emotions for fear of being thrown off balanced. I prefer being in control. Whenever some guy confessess,I totally freak out. From my past few experiences. I am scared that what they feel is not really like/love. I just keep thinking along the lines of "it's just male hormones". Which is I think,the main reason why I gave up. But on the other hand,if I keep up this point of view,how am I ever gonna get married =.= Okay,I am talking about some far-sighting stuff here,but face it. It's something that we are all bound to confront at some time of our lives.
Okay,I forgot what I wanted to say already. lol. Anw,it's all in my diary where it truly matters. I ahve no idea why I typed all this. But since I already spent so much time on typing this,I might as well post it. LOL. Lame reason,I know. In any case,I am too tired to think anymore. I don't even want to...
I ended up with a group of guys. At first I was kind of apprehensive,cause all look so...erm...scary. LOL. But after awhile,I found that they were actually really very nice people. I wanted to add the guy sitting next to me in facebook so I went to ask for his real name (In BC,we are called by names we want to be called). So far so good,right? Guess what? By the time I went down to the first floor,I had already forgotten his name. -shrieks!!- I have such a bad memory... Nvm...there are other sources I can find out from. Worse come to worse,don't add lor. lol. But it would be nice if I could :D I mean, making a new friend is better than having a new enemy,right? :P
All in all,it has been a great day. It has been so long since I regarded BC lessons as fun. It's just so hard to fit in...urgh. Let's just talk about something else.
I have actually been meaning to type this out for a while,but have never gotten around to it. Here it is: Around 6months ago,Eddie once asked me why I was so afraid of confronting my emotions. At that time,I thought "wth was he saying??" But a few days ago,I realised that what he said was true. I am afraid of digging too deep in my emotions for fear of being thrown off balanced. I prefer being in control. Whenever some guy confessess,I totally freak out. From my past few experiences. I am scared that what they feel is not really like/love. I just keep thinking along the lines of "it's just male hormones". Which is I think,the main reason why I gave up. But on the other hand,if I keep up this point of view,how am I ever gonna get married =.= Okay,I am talking about some far-sighting stuff here,but face it. It's something that we are all bound to confront at some time of our lives.
Okay,I forgot what I wanted to say already. lol. Anw,it's all in my diary where it truly matters. I ahve no idea why I typed all this. But since I already spent so much time on typing this,I might as well post it. LOL. Lame reason,I know. In any case,I am too tired to think anymore. I don't even want to...
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