What an exciting day. lol. I went to BC today to makeup for tmrw's lesson. Today's class had a total of 27 peeps. Cool! lol. Normally a class only has 18 people. LOL. See the diff? Haha. Would have liked to sit with the usual clique,but due to land constrains,we were separated T.T

I ended up with a group of guys. At first I was kind of apprehensive,cause all look so...erm...scary. LOL. But after awhile,I found that they were actually really very nice people. I wanted to add the guy sitting next to me in facebook so I went to ask for his real name (In BC,we are called by names we want to be called). So far so good,right? Guess what? By the time I went down to the first floor,I had already forgotten his name. -shrieks!!- I have such a bad memory... Nvm...there are other sources I can find out from. Worse come to worse,don't add lor. lol. But it would be nice if I could :D I mean, making a new friend is better than having a new enemy,right? :P

All in all,it has been a great day. It has been so long since I regarded BC lessons as fun. It's just so hard to fit in...urgh. Let's just talk about something else.

I have actually been meaning to type this out for a while,but have never gotten around to it. Here it is: Around 6months ago,Eddie once asked me why I was so afraid of confronting my emotions. At that time,I thought "wth was he saying??" But a few days ago,I realised that what he said was true. I am afraid of digging too deep in my emotions for fear of being thrown off balanced. I prefer being in control. Whenever some guy confessess,I totally freak out. From my past few experiences. I am scared that what they feel is not really like/love. I just keep thinking along the lines of "it's just male hormones". Which is I think,the main reason why I gave up. But on the other hand,if I keep up this point of view,how am I ever gonna get married =.= Okay,I am talking about some far-sighting stuff here,but face it. It's something that we are all bound to confront at some time of our lives.

Okay,I forgot what I wanted to say already. lol. Anw,it's all in my diary where it truly matters. I ahve no idea why I typed all this. But since I already spent so much time on typing this,I might as well post it. LOL. Lame reason,I know. In any case,I am too tired to think anymore. I don't even want to...