I have realised that family relationships are really important. Without these ties,we would all be just scattered. My paternal grandmother has just passed away on Wednesday early morning. My paternal grandfather passed away about 20 years ago,so now that the 2 head people of the Wang family are gone,I really have no idea what's going to happen now. The maid hired for my late grandmother is going back to Philipines. The house...I don't know. Burn it,sell it,rent it out?? No idea. I think she left a will...but well,people are still gonna fight over it.

Ever since Wednesday,I have been getting home LATE and sleeping LATER than ever. Gosh. Every night (except for 1 night) come home at around 12midnight,then need to wash hair,so sleep at 2am -.- So tired. Last night my family had to shou ye,so we only slept for 2hours =.= Worse than HSRCY camp. -sigh- but for my beloved grandmother,it's definitely worth it. But actually everyday go there is like just to do nothing but rituals(there were quite a few). Oh yea,'cause my grandmother was a Cantonese,so all the immediate family need to wear a kind of uniform. Something like those you see on television. In fact,it IS those kind. lol. My 2nd bro wear,he looks like Sang NIla Utama. But when I wear,I look like the 7th lunar month ghost T.T 'cause cannot tie up hair. Then everyone keep on sweating,'cause we all wear 2 layers. Phew.

Today was the last day of the funeral. When the priests and band were conducting the last ritual,my aunts were really sobbing their hearts out. Afterall,ladies tend to be more emotional than men (NONE of the men cried!!). One of my aunt cried until she fainted!! I feel so...useless standing behind there -.- All of us haven't been getting enough sleep and the weather was rather warm. -sigh- After that,we were to wear socks,no shoes and walk on the road to sort of send my grandmother off. Then we got onto buses and went to the Mandai Crematory. At the viewing gallery,I...cried. It's the first time I actually cried in funerals. And this is my 5th funeral that I have attended so far throughout my life. I didn't cry at the rituals,but I cried at almost the last moment. Actually,before that I was thinking "Why aren't I crying?? She had treated me so well when she was alive. I should be crying for her" Then suddenly my vision blurred and tears spilled over T.T I thought my bros would at least give me a hug lor,but they never. Hmph!

Oh well...it's finally over. And I won't be able to see my grandmother again. Except the picture for praying la. lol. It's time to get back to my world again. Homework,homework and more homework. sian. 2 more weeks till SA2. T.T I am sooo gonan fail again -BIG SIGH-

I had a terrible day today ._. I am so damned stressed. Arghhh!! I am so gonna fail my Economics for SA2. I can feel it. Maybe Chemistry too. -sobs- But I can't do much about my Econs!! Mr Ang hasn't been coming for lessons recently.

Today I got nagged. Apparently, I am guilty of inconsiderate of juniors' welfare,irresponsible and too decisive. Does this even sound like me?? I mean seriously,if you consider yourself my friend,think about these characteristics and see if they fit on me? I am not trying to say that wow,I am so considerate of others' feelings,so responsible,etc because I know I am not. But I know I am not 100% inconsiderate,irresponsible either!

Jeez. Teachers nowadays keep saying that if we have questions,we must ASK! But if teachers have questions,do they ask?? NO! They just keep quiet,observe how things go,then scold you when things go wrong -.- It's like...wow. I am not stereotyping teachers,but well,think about it. Which teacher likes to be told that he/she is wrong? They have a higher amount of pride as comapred to us students,right? Afterall,they are supposed to be right in almost every other issue since they are adults,and we are just...kids.

Alright. Enough time spent typing this. I have a Physics test tomorrow and I can't afford to fail it. Haha.

I had such a long day today~! So tired. This morning I woke at 6.30AM!! 'Cause I need to reachs school by 7.15am. Well,apparently none of the juniors fall in 15min,so -shrugs- No comments. Today wah,seriously....SO MANY PEOPLE CAME LATE LA!! Then I had to keep looking at the attendance list to see who else is late,who else is not here,etc -.- kind of irritating. Somemore those people who fall in early/on time,had to wait for so long. Wrong attire kenna scolded. Fidget also have to get scolded. So poor things T.T -pat juniors- Get used to it. Unless you can get those people to come earlier. -sigh-

Then we went to Lim Chu Kang mangrove to pick litter and collect data. I think it's the first time I actually STEPPED into a mangrove. I mean yea,I have been to the mangrove a few times,but I always left soon after. Ehhh,nono. I have stepped onto a mangrove before. When I went to catch some....stuff. LOL. But anyway,I was grouped with Elysia,Jiaying and Ryan. We were to collect plastic stuff. Haha. And that included a lot,you know. Like chairs,plastic bags,plastic containers,etc. I think the total of your rubbish was about 9kg+ :D Cool. We sweated gallons just for that,you know. Haha. In the end,we collected everything we saw la. lol. Like styrofoam,sponge (omg! I saw a plant that GREW on the sponge! So cute :D) and metal. Things that were washed up by the sea when it was high tide. This programme was organised by NUS. Every year,they have people to clear beaches,mangroves,etc while collecting data on what kind of rubbish is collected. We spent atound 3hours there ba. Then we went back to school already.

After returning to school,those who were going for the Scouts Campfire stayed back to rehearse for our performance. Luckily today my piano teacher cancelled my piano lesson =P So...they rehearsed la (I not performing :D) before going for lunch at Hougang Point's Mac. Then lalala,came back to school and didn't rehearse anymore. LOL! 'Cause after lunch ma,then will become very sleepy. Since all no mood to rehearse,then slack lor. lol. Juniors went to play basketball while sec3s gossiped and chatted. Well,I was one of those who listened more than talked,of course. Haha. After some time,the sec3s played with the juniors and I actually ENJOYED playing basketball for the first time. 'Cause I can't score! But I scored today. Wow~! Haha. Then we realised something...the Scouts didn't expect HSRCY to have a performance. Well,then some unhappy things followed. But in the end,we DID get to perform la. So thank you,HS Rangers :D Even though I only spent a few hours attending the campfire,I could see that everyone of you spent a lot of effort on it. Congratulations on having such a successful campfire ^^

I finally reached home at 10.30pm+ So hungry now... -sigh- So tired too. My palms clap until pain lor. Then my throat shout until cannot shout already. Lol. -sigh- Sian ah!! Saturday already. Tomorrow Sunday,last day of my "holiday" -.- Tomorrow I going out with family to celebrate my eldest bro's lunar birthday ^^ Luckily I don't have anymore homework left. Phew. Jiayou for those who haven't finished their holiday homework!! :)

Wah. sian. Today go for Emath lesson,got more homework to do. LOL. Like go back school to get MORE homework. lol. But you can't not go back school either. -sigh- Tomorrow got Amath PLUS chem TT.TT More than half day gone. It's like my holiday is over already -.- how pathetic. But well,I can't complain,can I? Heard that SA2 is like in the first week of Oct o.o!! there's not enough time!! I better start studying already T.T

Hmm...not many people I can chat with recently. So bored. All so busy...sian. I guess I am off to bed. I have to wake up at 6am+ tomorrow for school. -sigh-

:) my blogger is finally back to normal. -sigh- Emo-ing~ I am wondering if I have depression ._. lol. I get sad and emo easily...

Wow. I spend the whole day slacking. How pro is that? Today's electricity bill must amount to quite a sum. Haha. Something very interesting happened today. I had a chat with Viceroy after such a long time. 2years,in fact. Another friend who came back T.T thank you.

Ahhh. It's been some time since I blogged. Some topics are too sensitive to be discussed here,so I wrote it in my diary. Haha.

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Someone has just passed away. I know because there's a funeral at the basketball court in my neighbourhood. I know because of the songs that they play are the same as those I heard at my grandpa's funeral... May you have a nice life in heaven,whoever you are T.T this is so sad. Leaving all your loved ones. Never seeing them again. -cries-

Today is a bit of a lonely day for me. Early in the morning went to piano lesson,where I got scolded again. lol. I didn't wish Annie a Happy Teachers' Day O.O No mood to do so (actually I didn't want to say it at all) ... Then I came home,slack here and there before I went to shower and go to Compass Point. I went to library to return my books first before I went to change into shorts :P Then I met with Zy then...studied a little? I mean,what do you call the activity whereby the two of you keep talking while sort of studying? -.- His hair very nice to ruffle up!!! Best thing is: he's a guy,so he doesn't need to comb it back or anything :D Then in the library cold mah,then his scalp is body temperature,so ya...very comfortable. Haha! Really la. My eldest bro also has this kind of hair de...before he cut it too short to be able to be messed up. lol. Had a fun time there,though I sort of slipped into emo-ness. lol. Nothing to do with you,Zy. Really. I just sort of...tripped emotionally. LOL. If you can understand what I mean.

Then I went to Bishan Library. When I came home after my piano lesson,I already got to know Kyx is going to be there. But I still went there -.- How stupid is that? But really...I don't have much choice. Besides,the library is pretty large. We probably wouldn't meet each other,right? Boy,was I dead wrong...I saw him,right there -.- I didn't want to bother him,so I went downstairs to find a space to study myself. See,I so nice la. lol. Then when we finished at around 5pm,we simultaneously went downstairs to meet. Then we sort of walked out together. lol. It was kind of awkward ._. But nvm,it's over ^^

Actually today,I was supposed to go cycling with 6D+Ms Ngo at Est Coast. But cher sick,so the plan changed to having dinner at Chomp x2. And duh,don't need to think also know I cannot go,right? I could also go watch movie with Yiling,Elysia and Peifoong and friends de. But I am not in the mood to watch movies. I am still not ready to face fantasy again. So yea. I ended up studying. LOL.

The song "Stay the same" by Joey McIntyre never fails to bare my heart till the point of vulnerability. It reminds me of the days in HSRCY. Those long,sweaty,trainings and camps that bring back the sweetest and most touching moments(: I LOVE HSRCY!!

Ps. Zy,you're really nice to hit!! Hair is also very very nice to ruffle!!:D


When will we...talk again?