I have realised that family relationships are really important. Without these ties,we would all be just scattered. My paternal grandmother has just passed away on Wednesday early morning. My paternal grandfather passed away about 20 years ago,so now that the 2 head people of the Wang family are gone,I really have no idea what's going to happen now. The maid hired for my late grandmother is going back to Philipines. The house...I don't know. Burn it,sell it,rent it out?? No idea. I think she left a will...but well,people are still gonna fight over it.

Ever since Wednesday,I have been getting home LATE and sleeping LATER than ever. Gosh. Every night (except for 1 night) come home at around 12midnight,then need to wash hair,so sleep at 2am -.- So tired. Last night my family had to shou ye,so we only slept for 2hours =.= Worse than HSRCY camp. -sigh- but for my beloved grandmother,it's definitely worth it. But actually everyday go there is like just to do nothing but rituals(there were quite a few). Oh yea,'cause my grandmother was a Cantonese,so all the immediate family need to wear a kind of uniform. Something like those you see on television. In fact,it IS those kind. lol. My 2nd bro wear,he looks like Sang NIla Utama. But when I wear,I look like the 7th lunar month ghost T.T 'cause cannot tie up hair. Then everyone keep on sweating,'cause we all wear 2 layers. Phew.

Today was the last day of the funeral. When the priests and band were conducting the last ritual,my aunts were really sobbing their hearts out. Afterall,ladies tend to be more emotional than men (NONE of the men cried!!). One of my aunt cried until she fainted!! I feel so...useless standing behind there -.- All of us haven't been getting enough sleep and the weather was rather warm. -sigh- After that,we were to wear socks,no shoes and walk on the road to sort of send my grandmother off. Then we got onto buses and went to the Mandai Crematory. At the viewing gallery,I...cried. It's the first time I actually cried in funerals. And this is my 5th funeral that I have attended so far throughout my life. I didn't cry at the rituals,but I cried at almost the last moment. Actually,before that I was thinking "Why aren't I crying?? She had treated me so well when she was alive. I should be crying for her" Then suddenly my vision blurred and tears spilled over T.T I thought my bros would at least give me a hug lor,but they never. Hmph!

Oh well...it's finally over. And I won't be able to see my grandmother again. Except the picture for praying la. lol. It's time to get back to my world again. Homework,homework and more homework. sian. 2 more weeks till SA2. T.T I am sooo gonan fail again -BIG SIGH-