Wallowing in depression does me no good,that much I know. Self-pity does not help at all,that much I DO know as well. What I don't know,is how I could have allowed myself to get that kind of atrocious results. It was absolutely unbelievable. I can only be comforted with the thought that I was not the only one. How pathetic.

Next thing I don't understand is why I am missing you so much. I shouldn't,you know. Oh hell. You DO know. I made that clear enough. Well,I am not sorry for what I said,but I still miss you. I have no idea why. Maybe it was because of your overflowing friendliness,or perhaps it was your sensitivity around me. Damn it. I miss you. How long more do I have to wait for you to talk to me initiatively?

Last but not least,I realised that playing the piano is a good way for me to release my emotions. I can play rather well :D So I guess this means I should let go of my emotions more often. Though I can't say I like the feeling much. But it feels good to just let everything go. Well,the neutral ones remained,because of lack of happiness/sadness energy,but those over bubbly ones are gone now. Now it's only you and me,buddy. You and me.