I am so sleepy. lol. I have personally experienced and confirmed that lack of sleep accumulates until you finally cannot tahan and sleep standing up. But I think the last few days were really worth it.

Learnt some useful studying techniques,got my mind really really corrupted,spent more time with friends,found my true self. Best of all,I don't think I have ever cried so much in front of friends. During the second night,I cry like siao. My eyes were totally swollen after that. The tears just kept flowing like an unclosed tap. I just can't help myself when I hear about how others suffered and died. The pain they went through sounds so...terrible that I never ever want to experience it. Not only that,the gratefulness I used to have has disappeared as years went by. The workshop has helped me to regain it and be truly thankful for what I have. Happily married parents. Annoying but loving brothers. I cannot imagine living without them.

On the last day of the workshop,when I was still waiting for it to start,I messaged both my brothers "I love you,bro". The night before,I had hugged both of my parents and told them I love you. I think my whole family thought I was crazy after that. LOL. But when I hugged them,I realised that those 3 words were so hard to say it to someone you truly love and cherish. I was trembling after I finally did it. lol. I think that every now and then,we ought to pause and show our gratitude to the people around us who have supported us,helped us,encouraged us.

I also cried on the last day. lol. Starting to think I am a crybaby. The tears just keep dripping!! lol. But before I cried,I was laughing so hard till I had a stitch. The facilitators were showing us how to hug and the ways to counter nagging. lol. Had a hard time persuading my dad to come for the closing ceremony,so I was really touched when he made the effort to come despite his busy schedule.

Every night come home,shower,do assignments,I sleep at around 11.30pm. lol. A far cry from my usual sleeping time. And I wake up the usual time. T.T imagine the amount of time lost. lol. But I was really motivated and finally got my dreams straight. Achievable or not,I don't know,but I believe. I believe in my own capabilities that I can realise my dreams. But before I can have my desired career(s),I am aiming for 7A1s for my "O"s. Looking at my grades now,they are a bit doubtful,but I believe in myself. So I guess you will be seeing less of me online. Haha.

Did first aid duty today for newspaper collection. lol. Basically it means slacking. Meanwhile,I was trying my best to get out of TKGS campfire. Why? 'Cause my dad wanted me to spend more time studying. I agree with him and I don't wish to disregard his wishes(not after superteen workshop,because whatever he says is all for my own good. LOL), but at the same time,I really wanted to see my RC friends for the last time. So in the end,I finally had a compromise with him :D Isn't compromising the best solution ever when you don't want to show disrepect? Hee. Though there will definitely be an opportunity cost in me compromising,but the cons are not so great. Looking forward to a favourable week. LOL.

Just got notice that NCO camp is cancelled. WEEEE~~~ My current job is to study,study and study T.T -pressed face against jail bars- eellppppppp....lol. Hope I am not falling sick. Feeling a little under the weather T.T I want sleeeepppppppppp~