lol. Don't even ask why I am crying as I type this. I stayed up till 12.30 this morning to submit my JAE form. There was a panic attack sometime around 12 but I managed to survive. I didn't put a 7-point school in my top 3 choices. TJC was my 4th choice,in fact. After reading about the bullying cases in ACJC,I threw it out of my considering list. I put TJ behind because it's really far even though it's famous.

Well. SAJC is my first choice actually. And for some reason,I am rather apprehensive and worried about going there. It's such a shame that I can't go to the same school as most of my friends. Okay,I can,but SA has a higher ranking than them academically. lol. Main point is to go to uni after all. Doesn't matter how we do it,but the end result MUST be university. Isn't that so?

Then I figured I might as well cry out all the negative emotions so I went ahead. I don't think it worked. lol. Then I went to watch some motivational videos in the hopes that I can gather more courage to carry on. (influenced by Mr Chin's way to motivate self) I ended up feeling that no matter how much I worry,those obstacles are still gonna be there. Why not just face reality and do the best I can? We only live once and ought to do all we can to realise our dreams. And then all the emo music got my eyes to leak again. I remember that I almost wanted to weep in History class when Mr Chin showed us the Coffee Motivational story. Thank goodness I didn't. When Ms Toh sent us those inspirational messages to encourage us during the Olevels,I remember being very touched. There aren't that many teachers who care so much about their students. I guess other than HSRCY,I will miss the teachers there too. The ones who put in so much effort for us to do well in the Os.

Well,I am not going to burden you guys by naming out all my troubles and will just end off here. Good luck to all. Hope everyone can get into the school and course they want to :)