This time it really really hurts. Why is it that despite all that I have done, I still can't win over your heart? I have put my heart out on the line...and all I have gotten in return is continual stabs with the horribly sharp knife you wield. You said that maybe being single aint so bad...and I agree. Being single doesn't make me go on emotional rollercoasters. Being single doesn't make me constantly worried about what you think. And being single doesn't make me cry like this...

While you were in Brunei, you proposed twice for us to take a break from whatever we had between us. And both times, you said sorry and for us to get back together. Do you still remember that after the second time, I said if you dared to do it once more, there isn't another second chance? Now that you have really done it a third time, I am thinking how many more times do I have to lose you again before all goodwill we have between us is really lost and we can't even stay as friends. The fact that I am probably really losing you for good this time should really sink in now...if Andrea were to hear about this, she would probably say that these are really bad signs for our relationship. And I can't say I disagree anymore..

I wonder how much more of this I can take before I throw in the towel...