Yes. Independence has always been what I wanted,wasn't it? Now that I finally have the chance to make decisions on my own,I should be happy ,shouldn't I? Yet I find myself worrying this and worrying that...Things like would I hurt someone with my decision,would I be happy with it,would there be more advantages or disadvantages. lol. I sound like I'm going to write an essay or something. Haha. A part of me still long for others to decide for me. It makes things so much easier. Yes,I am a total coward if no one has realised that yet. But of course,I wouldn't be caught saying it. :P

This morning,I worked out all my problems in my diary. Now that I have poured out all my feelings and troubles in it,I feel better already. So I wrote out a list of my problems and went about telling myself how I will solve them. lol. I postponed those that I could and gathered courage for those I could not. And I have finally convinced myself that all will be fine :)

I am really not looking forward to the next year actually. I really don't want to grow up. I would rather be a child forever. If only time could stop,huh. Haha. If only.