Oh dear,Chinese Os was...!@#!#!!!!! Usually after an exam,I would more or less have an idea what my grades would be like,but for this exam...I really couldn't get the feel of it. My chinese compo sucked. Big time. My paper 2...very unsure of my answers. -sigh-

Today,Dad spoke to my physics teacher,cause I flunked it. They talked through phone. God.

In class,I am usually just sitting there,looking at the whiteboard or the teacher...basically just building sandcastles in the air...Usually teachers won't call upon me,but if they did,I would be sitting there,nodding my head in agreement,trying to appear wise. At least,give a thin smile to show that I totally understand what they say. I think I might have used it a mite too much lately. My cover is blown. -sigh- It took me years to perfect it too... People say practise makes perfect,but to me,practise breeds complacency. After the call,my teacher was like telling me it's good to have such a concerning parent,and I was like nodding away,giving that smile,and her expression was like I-know-you-so-don't-understand. -SIGH-

I have absolutely no idea what to do. Have I mentioned I am bored?

Alright,here's a little something I realised about me (regarding appearance):
I can smile and laugh and be really high.
At that time,I appear to be the most sociable person on earth.
Ultra friendly, easygoing...and whatever postive things you can think of.
However,when I don't smile and look a little cross-eyed (usually after reading for too long),
I appear stern but confidant and oozing with leadership.
When there is absolutely no light in my eyes and lots of strain lines,
On the outside,I would look like a lost child,I suppose.
Appearing confused,alone and tired.

Of course,take note that these are just appearances. How people perceive my expressions,not my feelings. I thought a lot about that "wise" smile today. It doesn't seem to be helping me,but I realised that if I don't smile,I don't appear friendly -slaps palm against forehead- And appearing friendly is very important when you don't want people to push you away. I have encountered too many "wah,if you don't smile,like so fierce like that siah" ... Pain in the butt,is what it is. Smiling,i mean.

Am I going emo? Oh dear...