Ahhhh,I am so tired. Haven't felt like this after stepping down from HSRCY months ago. I feel so sad. I think this year is going to be a very sad year becasue of so many partings. First,my stepping down from HSRCY. Second,me quitting British Council (today was my last official lesson). Third, drifting apart from a certain someone. Fourth,parting with all my teachers and secondary school friends at the end of the year. I wonder how much more heartbreaks I can endure without breaking. -sigh-

Chinese Intensive is really fun. Super fun,I tell you. Every single day without fail,we do an entire set of chinese paper. Including all compoS and compreS. Phew. All my brain juices all gone liao. I seriously suck at the MCQs and compos. Can't form a perfect chinese sentence with chim chim words in it. Yikes. Not goooddd. Oh my god. suddenly feeling so nervous about Chinese Os which is on 31st May. Eeekk!! I need all the luck I can get!! LOL.

Today was my last official BC lesson. So sad. So far,it has been the one and only tuition I have ever had in my life. lol. Being the sweet friend that I am -coughs- I bought each of them a present. A different one for all 3 of them. So thoughtful right? -blush- LOL. Plus today Me,Mar and JP gave Jane's belated birthday present too. Super lots of gifts going around. lol. Hugged JP. So far,she is the best person I have ever hugged. Not too tall,not too round,she is slim,in fact. lol. Gotta get some pics next thurs,makeup class for Vesak day.

For the last week,I have been feeling totally emo. I believe that what we have is definitely more than plain,simple friendship. After so many years,you have finally found someone you love. I know I am to be glad for you,but somehow I just can't bring myself to. Sadly,I am underaged and not allowed to drown my sorrows in alcohol (though I won't even if I can),I found another way to escape this harsh reality world. For the time being. I just want to hide. To run away from a world without you.