你说骂我后能降血压，那我愿意让你骂。
但你每骂一句，我的心就多碎一寸。。。
这么多年来我一直努力让你们能够为我感到骄傲。
但这二十年来，无论我怎么做都比不过你们心目中理想的女儿。


There was once during dinner, when my brother recounted a story of one of his students who was doing very poorly in school. This kid has got an elder sister and brother who excel in their studies and then my dad gave his views on this student. He said "因为他比不上他的哥哥姐姐所以就自甘堕落lor，做一个没有用的人."


In my heart, my reply to that was "你知不知道我也曾经差那么一点也就到了自甘堕落的地步。就算是现在，我也随时能够陷入那里。如果我真的变成那样，would there still be a place in this family for me?"