When did my life bcome so difficult? How did I become to be in such a state? What is the use of trying to act intelligent when the truth is that I don't know a single thing?? What is the use of trying to be mature if all I end up with is just being left out?? Why even try to become someone I am not when in fact, I am not eveng oing to benefit from it?? This is absolutely dumb. Dumb to the core.

-sigh- all I want to do is just to have a good cry and move on in life. Is it so difficult? Oh wait. There isn't even anytime to stop and cry now. I have a presentation and GP consultation tomorrow, with my weekend used for doing homework and studying a history test next tuesday. Note: I didn't say studying for GP and chinese CT next thursday and friday. That is how packed my schedule is. Oh well. I guess I will try to squeeze in a little of that in my weekend,but no guarantee T.T this is the sad and sorry state of someone who doesn't consistently study T.T -sigh-

I swear,after my GP exam on friday,I am GOING OUT. I don't care where, so long as I am not going to stay home and do homework or study. I shall take it as a reward for surviving yet another term without getting silver for my NAPFA (again). Yes, that means another term of NAPFA training =.=" GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. (haven't used that in a long time. kinda miss it. hahaha)