We spend 1/3 of our life studying. So what?

Even if we get brilliant grades,you don't excel in your work,you will never promote.

So why study?

Life is short. Yet it is also long. It will be short if we spend our time efficiently and enjoying life. But it will be long if we are pessimistic and never strive for our goals.

People say that only with aims in life,you can do well. But I don't. I don't have a career in mind. I don't have any interest besides reading. I don't enjoying working my brain to it's end. I don't.

What can I do??

What???

I don't know why I am on Mother Earth anymore. Life used to be so enjoyable. With love,care,what more can I want? But things have changed.

Homework,projects,exams,tests. All these stresses me out. Even now. Two more weeks to SA2. I already can't hold out any longer. And I have barely studied. I really worry that I can't go to the ideal class my dad wants me to go to.

I don't mind my dad pushing me down to his belief of success. At least I have some way that leads to somewhere.

But the stress is overwhelming. I don't understand why I am feeling this either. Normally I wouldn't stress out over a SA2 this much. Perhaps it is the knowledge of knowing that this year is streaming year.

But I don't want to care anymore. If I could,I really don't want to. Sitting by a fireplace,the living room illuminated only by the fire,snow falling down outside the house,listening to some soothing music,read a novel...my ideal heaven. Better still if the location is in some peaceful western country. But when? When can I achieve this??

How about never?

It is alright if you don't understand this post :] It is not really meant to be understood. It is just for me to say out my feelings. In a "written" manner. A diary is just too troublesome. Not that I didn't try. I did. Twice. The book just sat there rotting away. =)

To those pessimistic friends out there,don't give up. We might just trip over success one day.